What's John Bonhams grave?? Never heard of it man.
Don't apologize for venting. That's what this place is for. If I tell my "normal" friends & family that I'm clean but I feel like using and all that's on my mind is a shot, they think I'm insane and could even get angry with me. If I say it on here, people actually understand and sympathize, and that's why it's so important to connect with like-minded people!
Yeah we've had a lot of snow. It's stopped me from going running but I love snow to be honest - I've read that snow is really good for people with seasonal affective disorder because it reflects light, and I've always noticed that when it's snowed and everything is glistening, white & beautiful that I feel so much better than when it's dark and grey. I'm going out for walks in it to make the most of it. How's it round by you?
You've gotten through the worst of it yuba!! Keep going man.
I'm on day 15 today. I feel a little down but it's to be expected. I've noticed that even though my mood is all over the place I can at least rely on the fact that my mind becomes clearer, and the fog of when I first quit drugs doesn't ever come back as long as I stay clean. That brain damaged hazy feeling where it feels like my brain has been wrapped in cotton wool - that retreats and it doesn't come back. Even though there are days like today where I feel a little down, my mind is still clear, and I really enjoy that.
I've tried out a couple of new online recovery meetings. I'm still doing SMART but I've also added Refuge Recovery which is the buddhist take which was awesome and LifeRing which was basically like the best part of an AA meeting - the sharing, conversational part - extended to a whole meeting, which was awesome. To keep busy, I'm going to alternate between all 3. They don't clash at all - SMART gives the specific tools to manage cravings, Refuge elaborates on the spiritual part with meditation and LifeRing is just a way to connect with other people in recovery. I'm getting a lot out of them, so to
@yubacity or
@chinup or anyone else who might be struggling, I can't recommend them enough.