Preface: I made a post before, but I think I pinpointed why I'm feelin the way I am after my meth abuse
I take effexor with an antipsychotic(Zyprexa, bc I'm bipolar2 and the Zyprexa keeps me stable while effexor effectively treats most of my depression and relieves me of endless intense anxiety) and a couple months ago I got offered to hit the meth pipe. Guess what my dumb ass did? Hell fuckin yeah brother.
Nah but yeah here I am now, soon I'll be comin up on my 3rd week daily taking meth. I usually smoke or oral dose like 30-40mg a day max, a lot of days I only hit my pipe a few times and don't redose(so I don't feel like fucking dying from being off meth but also to lessen the tolerance/psychological dependence I'm giving myself)
A couple times I took closer to 100mg in a night. Never good for me, just a big burn out and intense comedown.
Anyway yeah, the symptoms my medications were relieving seem to come back even worse than they were before when I go a day or two without meth.
I feel really trapped here, and I'm hoping to stop when I run out of this half gram. Could take a while for me to finish it or maybe I'll let friends smoke it idc.
I gotta work. I can't be in an endless state of agonizing anxiety, hopelessness, loneliness, depression, thought loops, that typa shit. For idek how many days? Could be a couple, maybe it diminishes over a week.
What would you suggest for a person in this kind of spot? I'm bad at handling intense mental pain. It isn't a normal level of pain, either. Physically I can push through, I can take some wellbutrin and it helps me not drag ass.
I take effexor with an antipsychotic(Zyprexa, bc I'm bipolar2 and the Zyprexa keeps me stable while effexor effectively treats most of my depression and relieves me of endless intense anxiety) and a couple months ago I got offered to hit the meth pipe. Guess what my dumb ass did? Hell fuckin yeah brother.
Nah but yeah here I am now, soon I'll be comin up on my 3rd week daily taking meth. I usually smoke or oral dose like 30-40mg a day max, a lot of days I only hit my pipe a few times and don't redose(so I don't feel like fucking dying from being off meth but also to lessen the tolerance/psychological dependence I'm giving myself)
A couple times I took closer to 100mg in a night. Never good for me, just a big burn out and intense comedown.
Anyway yeah, the symptoms my medications were relieving seem to come back even worse than they were before when I go a day or two without meth.
I feel really trapped here, and I'm hoping to stop when I run out of this half gram. Could take a while for me to finish it or maybe I'll let friends smoke it idc.
I gotta work. I can't be in an endless state of agonizing anxiety, hopelessness, loneliness, depression, thought loops, that typa shit. For idek how many days? Could be a couple, maybe it diminishes over a week.
What would you suggest for a person in this kind of spot? I'm bad at handling intense mental pain. It isn't a normal level of pain, either. Physically I can push through, I can take some wellbutrin and it helps me not drag ass.