sonicwhite
Bluelighter
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- Aug 8, 2012
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I got flubromazolam last October. I was so out of it that my roommate would stash extra Norco for us pill count.
Well I was going in there getting 10 and 12 at a time. I would FaceTime my gf and be so out of it.
Well finally I dumped the benzo out and I walked in there and the pill bottle was empty. He said I came in there and took the whole bottle.
There was like 90 in there.
Well when I sobered up my heart sank and I asked myself am I dead now. Well I would go into this trance and think that the heavens and the earth would vanish and I would stand in front of Jesus and give an account.
Not a pleasant feeling thinking you died of a OD while being a Christian.
After awhile I thought that this was heaven. Everything seemed super enhanced.
It’s a strange but pleasant feeling when you think you have nothing else to worry about.
I flushed my psych meds down the toilet. I didn’t sleep for three weeks straight.
Guys why I’m writing this is because God knocked it into my head that if I stayed in that path you would see me in the shrine.
It just isn’t worth it.
Well I was going in there getting 10 and 12 at a time. I would FaceTime my gf and be so out of it.
Well finally I dumped the benzo out and I walked in there and the pill bottle was empty. He said I came in there and took the whole bottle.
There was like 90 in there.
Well when I sobered up my heart sank and I asked myself am I dead now. Well I would go into this trance and think that the heavens and the earth would vanish and I would stand in front of Jesus and give an account.
Not a pleasant feeling thinking you died of a OD while being a Christian.
After awhile I thought that this was heaven. Everything seemed super enhanced.
It’s a strange but pleasant feeling when you think you have nothing else to worry about.
I flushed my psych meds down the toilet. I didn’t sleep for three weeks straight.
Guys why I’m writing this is because God knocked it into my head that if I stayed in that path you would see me in the shrine.
It just isn’t worth it.