I am really disappointed in many of the replies to this thread. Does anyone really not understand how incredibly difficult being in this position is? Is this really what sober living has become about in my absence?
If you can?t communicate some level of compassion please reconsider posting in this thread. By this point it?s pretty clear continuing using is a horrible idea, as it is almost guaranteed will result in harm to the child and/or forced removal.
We know that much. Given that is pretty clear now, how would you suggest the OP address her situation, the cravings to use, the romantic thinking of it all somehow working out fine, and how she could get help and support to make the most of an incredibly difficult situation?
To the OP: you obviously have to take better care of yourself, but please try to avoid too much self hatred. You are not the only reason you?ve gotten into this situation, in fact you are at most only partly responsible. Others, many many others are at least as responsible for this as you are.
You are responsible for dealing with this, but you aren?t responsible for dealing with it on your own; others are just as responsible: responsible for showing you the love and support necessary for anyone to overcome something of this nature.
Self hatred and confrontation are only useful in a very, very limited if important way here. Learning to love yourself despite all this isn?t just what you need, it?s even more important for your unborn child. It is the more significant challenge and opportunity.
Getting in this situation isn?t about one poor choice, it?s about the causes and conditions of ones life leading to this place. Turning thinking around is obviously up to the OP, but it?s important to realize that it isn?t merely their fault.
Hopefully through relying on others and a bit more sensory clarity will help change that. I?m glad to hear your parents are getting more involved with this. Hopefully they can find help beyond just the family as well. As they say, it takes a village...
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And just to clarify, outrage and anger is fine, just as it doesn?t turn into shaming.
(Thx herby
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