elitewalrusxx
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I'm having trouble finding exactly what kind of damage is common besides congenital heart disease in long term users. I have definitely had my heart altered by it in some way but the doctors say I am 100% healthy.
My Symptoms:
What the Doctors Said:
I four EKG's an EKG stress test and and echo cardiogram done over the course of two months. I also wore a two electrode heartbeat monitor for four days. When I met with the cardiologist she told my that I had a heart murmur which is very common and probably existed before my heart started acting up. She said that my heart was very healthy as a young fit persons heart should be (I'm majoring in computer science I hardly move) and she was surprised to see that the heart monitor showed zero extra beats, something that even a healthy person would likely experience a few times over the course of four days. She predicts that the irregular heart beats that I had experienced on those three nights were the result of extra beats in the upper chamber of the heart. She said unless I lose consciousness or have a racing heartbeat that wont relent, I shouldn't come back. During all of this I was too ashamed to admit that drugs were involved. I'm tired of everyone saying it is just anxiety. I know something changed.
How it Happened:
A while ago I had a huge supply of amphetamine and I very foolishly abused it for a few months. I was taking anywhere from taking 10-40mg doses once a day and sometimes twice. One night I made the horrible decision to take Xanax so I could sleep and I blacked out. The next morning I woke up to find the amphetamine on my desk almost gone. There was probably at least 200mg in there. I had to deal with two days of psychosis; solid object waving in the wind, breathing walls, specks that looked like bugs in my periphery, people walking around at night, auditory hallucinations, and a rat creature in my closet that was really just a rolled up blanket when i would get close enough to see it. This was all fascinating as I didn't have any paranoia and I knew none of it was real. I just went to school and work normally, the week went by in what felt like just a few days and I fully recovered without anyone even knowing. A month or so after this happened I noticed when I would take the amphetamine my heart would beat forcefully in my chest. After this happened a few times I quit my daily habit but my heart problems continued. I went to the walk in clinic and he told me to go to the er. I have very little interest in using drugs after all this but I still really want to explore the use of psychedelics. I've tripped twice since and the anxiety of having heart problems haunts me. I can no longer enjoy it.
My Symptoms:
- A forceful but not necessarily faster heart rate. I can't ignore it when I lie on my side and if I'm up and walking around I can feel it beating forcefully; Even through my winter coat. I remember trying to feel my heartbeat earlier in 2017 and I had to lay in bed on top of my hand just to feel even the slightest beating.
- An increased but still technically healthy blood pressure. Before this began, I took my blood pressure and it was in the healthy range. Now when I take my blood pressure the bottom number is usually in the healthy range (below 80) but the top number (systolic) is consistently higher than 120.
- I can feel the veins in my neck throbbing just by gently putting my hand to it after the most moderate physical activity such as climbing the stairs.
- I can very easily feel pulses across my body, such as when I put my hand into a fist and I can feel a pulse in my palm or if I rest my arm on something.
- On three different nights I noticed my heart would beat extra forcefully every few seconds or so in an irregular fashion. It was always gone when I awoke in the morning.
What the Doctors Said:
I four EKG's an EKG stress test and and echo cardiogram done over the course of two months. I also wore a two electrode heartbeat monitor for four days. When I met with the cardiologist she told my that I had a heart murmur which is very common and probably existed before my heart started acting up. She said that my heart was very healthy as a young fit persons heart should be (I'm majoring in computer science I hardly move) and she was surprised to see that the heart monitor showed zero extra beats, something that even a healthy person would likely experience a few times over the course of four days. She predicts that the irregular heart beats that I had experienced on those three nights were the result of extra beats in the upper chamber of the heart. She said unless I lose consciousness or have a racing heartbeat that wont relent, I shouldn't come back. During all of this I was too ashamed to admit that drugs were involved. I'm tired of everyone saying it is just anxiety. I know something changed.
How it Happened:
A while ago I had a huge supply of amphetamine and I very foolishly abused it for a few months. I was taking anywhere from taking 10-40mg doses once a day and sometimes twice. One night I made the horrible decision to take Xanax so I could sleep and I blacked out. The next morning I woke up to find the amphetamine on my desk almost gone. There was probably at least 200mg in there. I had to deal with two days of psychosis; solid object waving in the wind, breathing walls, specks that looked like bugs in my periphery, people walking around at night, auditory hallucinations, and a rat creature in my closet that was really just a rolled up blanket when i would get close enough to see it. This was all fascinating as I didn't have any paranoia and I knew none of it was real. I just went to school and work normally, the week went by in what felt like just a few days and I fully recovered without anyone even knowing. A month or so after this happened I noticed when I would take the amphetamine my heart would beat forcefully in my chest. After this happened a few times I quit my daily habit but my heart problems continued. I went to the walk in clinic and he told me to go to the er. I have very little interest in using drugs after all this but I still really want to explore the use of psychedelics. I've tripped twice since and the anxiety of having heart problems haunts me. I can no longer enjoy it.
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