cacachanel
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Mar 11, 2017
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I'm a really really socially anxious person which I always thought was just a personality trait (I thought I was "introverted" or "shy"), this prevented me from doing basic things like closing my inactive bank account (I was paying their monthly fees because I wasn't able to talk to the manager to close it). I tried many different antidepressants, and I think Pristiq at 100 mg is really helping me with my depression (which is very mild) and self-esteem, but not with my social anxiety. Then I found out that my sleeping pill (ambien), taken during the day, made me able to interact with people like normal people do, I was able to do a lot of things I couldn't before, using ambien. The biggest problem is that it impaired heavily my cognitive function and the duration was really short. My childhood friend (who is a doctor and knew about my problems for a long time) suggested me to switch to Xanax, which he prescribed me. It worked much better, but also had some cognitive impairment that bugged me. Anyway, my life post-xanax is a new one and I'm doing things I never thought I would be able to do before. I talked about it frankly with my psychiatrist and he prescribed me klonopin 2mg a day (which I could split and use anytime I felt I needed). With my tolerance, 2 mg seems to be like the threshold for klonopin to function, yes, it significantly reduces my social anxiety and I'm even able to talk to people, but some symptoms like "being worry free" enough when I need, not overthinking about social situations that happened or that are going to happen, it doesn't work. So I'm abusing it, using 4 mg a day (1 mg 4 times a day). which makes me a very "chilled" person.
I was thinking about: will I be able to hide I'm under the influence of (a high dosage of) Klonopin to my co-workers, do you guys who also abuse benzo think your co-workers notice it?
Thank you (and sorry for my English, I know it sucks, "your" in the title was a typo, the rest is just me being illiterate)!
I was thinking about: will I be able to hide I'm under the influence of (a high dosage of) Klonopin to my co-workers, do you guys who also abuse benzo think your co-workers notice it?
Thank you (and sorry for my English, I know it sucks, "your" in the title was a typo, the rest is just me being illiterate)!