Morning (here anyways) aihfl,
Been a while. Im sorry to hear that things have taken such a turn.
I know its of no use to tell you not to worry, so I wont ... but know that your in my thoughts.
A wise man once said "Hope for the best and plan for the worst"... I dunno how quick these sorts of cases push through the courts but the last thing your gonna wanna do is WD in the clink.As others have said, take the rehab. Not only will it look good for the courts (Lord knows it/a good lawyer were the only things to prevent me from jail, all those years ago) but you might find something that you can use too.
As far as the "deranged carousel" your on called life. Well Im reminded of a Bill Hicks quote
"The world is like a ride in an amusement park, and when you choose to go on it you think it's real because that's how powerful our minds are. The ride goes up and down, around and around, it has thrills and chills, and it's very brightly colored, and it's very loud, and it's fun for a while. Many people have been on the ride a long time....
But it doesn't matter, because it's just a ride. And we can change it any time we want. It's only a choice."
Though the choices arent always easy, and sometimes it feels like choice is only an illusion...we can change.
Much love brother.
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