I forgot who brought it up but my biggest problem with drug treatment is that I have panic disorder and take klonopin. I need it and you shouldn't taper someone off a mg a day or at all.
I dunno what type of quack thinks they can take you off a medication you have been on over a decade and take you off in less than a week when you have seizures if you don't take it.
Also they had problems with every non-narcotic medication that is schedule IV now but I really had some bad injuries but basically they wouldn't even let you take allergy medicine if you were allergic to cats and they had cats for example.
They did all this holistic stuff. I remember the psychologist calling the higher ups saying there was no way it was going to work and then she whispered to me "you should leave, you might die here" and shit got real.
I started phoning friends and family because I was already having pretty bad muscle spasms and if I checked in officially I was fucked and even though it was free I would be charged 1000 dollars a day for each day I wasn't there, so I imagine that is how they keep people there. I had just handed them my money for I guess their version of commisery so there I am in the middle of no where with no phone reception and them refusing to give me my money.
As far as the people I phoned for rides someone did come to get me but they told me a few lies. Your mother doesn't want you to call her until you finish and go to a halfway house, your girlfriend broke up with you, your friend said he won't speak to you until you finish our program. My girlfriend picked me up, my mother called and demanded to speak with me, and my friend had told them he could pick me up the next day at noon or later that night if need be.
I hadn't seen that friend in a while but he was a close friend and the only one near there and I was losing my shit quick. I had already gone through detox and was considered clean by AA/NA standards and I didn't see why I couldn't take muscle relaxers if my whole back spasms. It isn't like I haven't had some really bad injuries. They gave me some shit like they had someone addicted to muscle relaxers and I laughed and they told me it wasn't funny and I said yeah it is.
I wasn't about the buy this whole accupuncture which is 69.95 a session is all I need not to have pain for a week shit and to drink decaffinated imported tea for 4 bucks a pop shit.
So I was really surprised at the degree they isolate you from family. If I had gone through the whole check in process, you can't use the phone or see anyone for several months. I get it might work if you are not actually addicted to anything. I suppose the main problem was I needed to stay on klonopin and they let me keep it in jail at this point which is rare but the guys in county have seen me have a few seizures.
I thought I was fucked for sure when I left and my PO was going to put me in jail but she said if the place didn't suit my needs I could just do outpatient and that worked out pretty well for me. I think I was the only person to actually finish their program and most people just stay in it so they can piss dirty and still finish probation.
I still was disgusted they told me lies about my treatment plan because I wouldn't have gone there if I had none they would say one thing on the phone and did another the second my ride was gone. So when I was calling for a ride I started with my mother and the nurse was like no she doesn't want to talk to you and hung up the phone while I was talking and my mother freaked out and demanded to speak with me so I already knew they were lying because she said she was going to come up there if she couldn't speak with me.
I decided halfway through the paperwork when they told me about their no-benzo policy and I was out. I am on the anxiety medication for a reason. I don't know where they get off saying my gf left me or that my friend didn't want to speak to me. The whole time I was waiting for my ride they kept saying shit like "she ain't coming" or "I told you she left you" but there is a two hour deadzone and they knew it and I knew it so yeah she actually drove 4 hours to pick me up. I dunno why they tried to fuck up my friendship cuz when I talked to my friend his dog had just died and he ended up having to bury it that day so he was willing to come that night or in the morning.
Of course they don't make any money and they signed me up for six weeks to they really wanted to bill me for 40k dollars as I had a free ride because I wrote them a letter. It would have been one thing if I had known and they had not lied on the telephone.
I really do think they would have let me die of a seizure before taking me to a hospital. It is kinda too late if it takes 20 minutes to get to a hopsital and yeah a seizure can kill you and you can have worse from benzo wd so even with a month of clean time they insisted benzos had something to do with my heroin addiction.
I haven't used heroin just a week shy of a year now and I really don't think benzos are part of my past drug habit because I still take them and outpatient let me take them and didn't even bring them up but then again you could be on oxy and morphine and they wouldn't care. I have had the staff tell me they didn't think the most the people on heavy duty pain meds actually needed them and I know because half them were selling them and I of course didn't say anything, I kept my head down to anything like that as well as any corruption.
I don't think you can beat drugs or alcohol problems in a set amount of days and being forced into a rehab facility is never good. They are pretty good at selling their services and they are willing to lie and they don't care if you die. I get some people on a low dose of benzos probably don't need them but at 6 mgs you are looking at serious complications and some tea is not going to fix the issue because it goes far past relaxing a bit and an inevitable medical problem that they really shouldn't even try to ride out but would most likely just give me some antipsychotics and say it was suicide if it came down to it and I didn't pull through.
Anyways they were kinda obligated to keep me on benzos until I either checked out or got a ride and I was expected to be out by 6am in the morning and left at 2am and they gave me a load of shit and for some reason kept all my drawing pencils and mailed them to me. I am not a big fan of television and asked if I could bring a few sketch pads and pens. I suppose they wanted to check it very well for drugs because they were pissed they didn't get paid.
I think the problem is privatizing medicine. This place is not really any different than a state facility, it might have a nice couch but you have a roomate. You also for some reason are not allowed to talk to the opposite sex even though you might be sitting right next to them if you choose to sit in the commons room you can't say a word without being locked in your room for a day. I didn't even get through the rules before I started calling people and they still kept reading them to me like I was going to stay.
It really annoyed me that I told them I was leaving and they were like "what are you going to do walk" and I said if it comes down to it. They laughed but I actually have hitchhiked from alcohol detox about 250 miles so yeah I would have. When I left they wouldn't give me the money I just gave them, my wallet, and some of my stuff. I don't get it. I am an adult who signed in willingly and they did call my probation officer and I didn't give them the number. My PO was cool about it and said its like a suit and if it doesn't fit right its not the one you want. I was just glad I didn't wind up in jail.
I really feel like these people did everything they could think of to keep me there when it clearly was putting my life in danger.