When I first started using meth, I was smoking like a gram a day. With no tolerance. I also had the naive notion that I would be able to restrict myself to using it "once a month." Well that didn't end up happening, instead I smoked an ounce in a month. I felt like absolute shit for this month long stretch and ran the gamut with every weird physical/mental symptom one could possibly imagine; you name it, I've experienced it. I have a log of this, maybe I'll share it some day.
Since then I've bought a milligram scale and take precisely 100mg every day, administered rectally, usually in the morning, then that's it. Every physical symptom I was experiencing pretty much instantly disappeared, and I feel great. I sleep every day, eat every day. I'm trying to reduce this further, hopefully down to 80, then 60, etc. I have a "meth usage calendar" to help guide me along - how much I'm allowed to take every day, which gets continually lower, with little 1-2 day drug vacations, and I stick to it.
In the short-term while sticking to this, it's been beneficial. I'm more motivated, focused, outgoing, creative. (I'm certainly not getting the paradoxical effect one gets when one smokes a gram to the face - unfocused, lazy, sleepy etc.) What are the long-term risks of this regimen? If there are long-term dangers, does it stem from my dosage, frequency of use, or ROA? I don't want to ignore the prevailing wisdom that meth=devil, and I intend to continue tapering and definitely continue skipping days, because being reliant on a chemical to feel 'normal' is no way to live; however with all the predictions of a doomsday scenario associated with prolonged meth use, when should I expect to experience it, if ever? I realize my current usage would still be considered within the recreational range and my ROA certainly is as well but I'm successfully tapering towards a more medicinal dose. I know this thread's been done before, but most of the replies to those threads are just conjecture - are there any actual studies of the long-term side effects of medicinal meth use? I don't really care what you or your buddy experienced and am not interested in the "It WILL eventually catch up with you" replies that have been repeated ad nauseam. Is meth just flat-out neurotoxic regardless of dosage, and if so maybe I should look towards Adderal or Desoxyn instead? Thanks.
Since then I've bought a milligram scale and take precisely 100mg every day, administered rectally, usually in the morning, then that's it. Every physical symptom I was experiencing pretty much instantly disappeared, and I feel great. I sleep every day, eat every day. I'm trying to reduce this further, hopefully down to 80, then 60, etc. I have a "meth usage calendar" to help guide me along - how much I'm allowed to take every day, which gets continually lower, with little 1-2 day drug vacations, and I stick to it.
In the short-term while sticking to this, it's been beneficial. I'm more motivated, focused, outgoing, creative. (I'm certainly not getting the paradoxical effect one gets when one smokes a gram to the face - unfocused, lazy, sleepy etc.) What are the long-term risks of this regimen? If there are long-term dangers, does it stem from my dosage, frequency of use, or ROA? I don't want to ignore the prevailing wisdom that meth=devil, and I intend to continue tapering and definitely continue skipping days, because being reliant on a chemical to feel 'normal' is no way to live; however with all the predictions of a doomsday scenario associated with prolonged meth use, when should I expect to experience it, if ever? I realize my current usage would still be considered within the recreational range and my ROA certainly is as well but I'm successfully tapering towards a more medicinal dose. I know this thread's been done before, but most of the replies to those threads are just conjecture - are there any actual studies of the long-term side effects of medicinal meth use? I don't really care what you or your buddy experienced and am not interested in the "It WILL eventually catch up with you" replies that have been repeated ad nauseam. Is meth just flat-out neurotoxic regardless of dosage, and if so maybe I should look towards Adderal or Desoxyn instead? Thanks.