Ligaturd
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I have had alcohol psychosis before. I chugged a mickey of whiskey (13 oz of 40 percent whiskey) 3 times in one day on top of taking 5mgs lorazepam in the morning with the first mickey. I can't be sure the lorazepam was the cause of this episode but it definitely potentiated the alcohol and I have read of alcohol psychosis before. I was actually seeing letters appearing on my bedroom wall in what appeared to be blood telling me to kill myself and that it was the end of the world. I did actually try to take the lock off my brothers gun and shoot myself (it was actually loaded for some reason). I was uncontrollable and irrational and it seemed so real. The episode faded into alcohol poisoning and being sick for a week.
I wonder if this happened through a similar mechanism to what you experienced? although I have never had a paradoxical reaction to taking benzodiazepines on their own before. I have experienced it a few times before this with just alcohol as well. Maybe it only happens to those of us with a predisposition to psychotic symptoms? I have been going through a psychosis lately, it's very important to remain grounded and to be able to differentiate between what is real and what is a delusion or one can get lost.
If psychosis is caught early and with professional help, the person is able to understand what is a hallucination and what isn't, people can heal and avoid full blown schizophrenia. This is what I was told from the man that works with the psychosis team at the hospital. If these delusions are allowed to root themselves and be unchallenged the damage can accumulate and get worse. Schizophrenia does cause actual physical changes to the brain but there have been cases where people have healed and come out of it. I have been challenging various hallucinations I have been having and proving to myself what is real and what isn't and I seem to have much more control over how negatively these episodes affect me. I can retain control over my mind and my emotions.
I wonder if this happened through a similar mechanism to what you experienced? although I have never had a paradoxical reaction to taking benzodiazepines on their own before. I have experienced it a few times before this with just alcohol as well. Maybe it only happens to those of us with a predisposition to psychotic symptoms? I have been going through a psychosis lately, it's very important to remain grounded and to be able to differentiate between what is real and what is a delusion or one can get lost.
If psychosis is caught early and with professional help, the person is able to understand what is a hallucination and what isn't, people can heal and avoid full blown schizophrenia. This is what I was told from the man that works with the psychosis team at the hospital. If these delusions are allowed to root themselves and be unchallenged the damage can accumulate and get worse. Schizophrenia does cause actual physical changes to the brain but there have been cases where people have healed and come out of it. I have been challenging various hallucinations I have been having and proving to myself what is real and what isn't and I seem to have much more control over how negatively these episodes affect me. I can retain control over my mind and my emotions.