Bluelight mobile is killing me right now. Three attempted posts sucked up by cyberspace. I will be EXTREMELY brief.
I live in California, and have been doing drugs for 25 years. I am as careful as I can be, but that did not stop opiates from ruining my life. I did every drug available, and those not so available. I have been clean for 18 months, and decided, for no particular reason, to do hard drugs with a friend one more time. As I sit here in pain, I severely regret that decision.
Methamphetamine was the choice, but what we got was something vastly different. We should have known because the appearance was different, milky, soft rocks, that crushed to a bright white powder. Even with alarm bells ringing, I went ahead.
The feeling from the line we sniffed was all encompassing. I felt righteous and powerful, but at the same time, relaxed and calm. I know methamphetamine, and this was not it. As incredible as the feeling was, by two hours later, it was gone. The result? Do more of course, and that was the beginning of the end.
I cannot tell you the amount we took, because no one measures out meth here, but I can tell you, I took way too much. Every time I redosed, I knew it was going to end badly. The overpowering urge to do so was great, I didn't care that I was still very stimulated, I just wanted to chase that high.
It is now about 50 hours later, since the last line I did, and I am beginning to feel hope that everything will be OK. I had to walk to the market for some food, not difficult, only normally 30 minutes there and back, but the walk this morning nearly killed me. Severe perspiration, fatigue, weakness, and absolutely horrible gastrointestinal distress. The worst I have ever had on any drug. I had a fever so bad even 3 grams of asprin barely made a dent in it.
I was enjoying being sober, as I have already seen and done it all, and now I have had my first real drug scare. I post this hear because it seems to me that what I got was probably some heavily cut MDPV. It is impossible that what we got was methamphetamine, and I know that headshops around here used to carry products such as Ivory Wave, and other so called cocaine alternatives. They were found to usually contain MDPV.
I registered and wrote this to tell others to please be careful in your choices. I know you guys are ordering substances from 'trusted' vendors, but unless you get the analytical work done on what you have, you can never be assured. BTW, I did sleep and was able to eat, but my pupils are still beyond normal, and I am quite tired. Thank God the sweating has stopped, that was very worrisome.
Just be careful is all, and if you feel something is not quite right, then don't do it.
My thanks to SHAMBLES, MOONSTANOODLE, and others for a very informative thread on how easy it is to loose the plot on stimulants, and MDPV in particular. I won't even get into the story about how my friend thought the upstairs neighbors were cconducting a radio show about us...
