This is very similar to the "you might be a junkie if..." threads I've read. Anywhoo...here's mine.
Yesterday I washed my cottons, proceed to get wasted, throw them away, then think better of it and rinsed them again...like 8 times. After throwing them away and fishing them out of the trash said number of times (gross), I finally gave in and admitted that I was wasting my time. I threw them away again, thought better of it, dug them out of the trash...again, and "just in case", shoved them up my nose and walked around like that for almost a whole day.
I do this everytime. I tell myself I will save myself a shot for morning, then wake up 6 hours later and realize I couldn't wait and shot it all before falling asleep. The cotton shot gets me well and high, then I rinse, re-rinse, and wait for my hookup to get out of work. I justify the nastiness by filtering the shot from the cottons before shooting. I know it's not gonna help but we junkies have a way of justifying just about anything somehow when it comes to getting high. I'm sure I will get cotton fever one of these days...I've been lucky so far but I know it will happen.
Ugh...the life of a junkie.