When I copped today right before work, there was such a relief I started crying, I'm usually a dark sider but I'm using til I can afford to go to a detox or I might lose my soul first.... When ones reaction to getting dope is to sob in relief, you know your in the thick of it... We always talk about how terrible detox is, but I tend to ignore the mental aspect of being hooked... Now in truth I cried for my physical wellbeing too, because I was deathly afraid of being sick at work but some of it is the anxiety and depression that's goes with being an opiatehead.... So what's going to happen when I detox, when I get out? Will I be sobbing everywhere I go for months, in that case fuck it, might as well use at that point.... So my question is this, how do you function as a heroin addict.... How do ya'll escape waking up sick everyday? That sucks dude, any tricks to make my last hit last the night? What about opiate potentiaters? Are they worth it? Plus when you do Benadryl or Dxm, doesn't it have its own buzz, so wouldn't it distract from my h buzz? And the feeling from Benadryl is terrible to be honest, never tried Dxm.... Also I plug or sniff depending on the kind... If it's to dry I remoisten and sniff... If it's super tarry, I plug.... I know too much info, but I'm am the only one of my friends that uses so, any advice ya'll could give me to stretch it out would be very appreciated.... Should I start iv? I spend around a bill a day right now and I've read the bioavailability is much better and more reliable through iv.... Or am I asking to lose myself completely going that route? Plus my dope is pretty dirty and I'm afraid of fucking up my veins.....anyway, thanks bluelight... Please help me learn to make this work for my life right now.....
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