Ive been taking Oxy's for six years, this was not supposed to happen and it's a long story how it came to be. I can't afford to have the surgery that might, might solve my problem and I can't afford to lose any time at work ever. I'm capped out by my Dr. who due to all the new rules and the spot light being on this stuff is trying to force my into the O/R by making me suffer. I have built up such a tolerance that I take it only to not be sick so I can work 150Mg/day. I'm running out all the time and have no street contacts yet. I'm thinking of making the switch to dope or possibly Suboxone I can take the pain I think. I fear Suboxone won't work and then what, The cat will be out of the bag with my Dr. and no going back to Oxy's. I own a business and can't lose one day away from it, Ive been working seven days a week for the last eight years and it's been tough, "long story". I really fear I'm going to end up dead. I was clean and sober since 1989 before this mess and I don't think I have another recovery in me. People depend on me big time.
I'm screwed totally