No it doesn't always get better. For me it seems to get worse.
I'm genuinely sorry you feel that way right now, I do believe things will change, everything does, it's the way of things.
Having had such thoughts myself I try not to just tell people not to do it etc, it wouldnt have made any difference to me in those times I was in a place where it wasn't some bog drama just it seemed like the only viable next move... I can't really explain it better than that.
The constant thoughts of it were exhausting and all consuming, for me I believe this was a large part of the problem. I'm sure I felt deep down I should be thinking those things and that it wasnt truly right.....I was a worthless piece of sh** that couldnt even manage to live another day.
In many ways we are all intrinsically alone, at least that is how I feel about the human condition, truly reaching others is tough and not something we should judge our lives by, I find it hard to make or maintain friendships but I try not to pressure myself about it, I'm not harming anyone by my lack of social skills.
It's a very personal thing but I found truly letting those thoughts of suicide in helped, they don't own me anymore. Ultimately we could all check out early if we decided to, obsessing about it is just that.
Hang in there, you are already reaching out to others, who might need you in your future ? what might that future bring ? the end will find us all in it's own good time, of that we can be certain.
Best wishes to you