To start this off, I've never tried any psychedelic substances before. I'm considering trying psilocybin to solve this mystery in my head that's been around since I was 10. When I was 10 years old, I began to have this vivid recurring dream of having this entity trying to guide me into another universe by remaining still and silent for an eternity. It would be accompanied by this ringing sound and the most terrifying feeling I've ever felt. I would get close to transitioning over, but then I wake up in a total delirium, mumbling words, running around banging my head into things for about 15 minutes. This entity remained dormant until I started using cannabis when I had an epiphany about the universe. Fast forward to a few months ago, I began to become obsessed with finding out what's going on. I started to see, feel, and sometimes hear this entity around me occasionally. Sometimes it would appear in my peripheral vision as a person for a split second, once I heard it whisper "as soon as you can" directly into my ear. Then I began to feel its dark presence behind me at times, or it would intercept my train of thought with a word in the form of this monotonous almost demonic sounding voice. I believe it's the same otherworldly entity from my dreams finally trying to contact me now that I'm an adult. I want to induce a psychedelic or entheogenic state so I can communicate with it and find out what it wants.
I've told others about this on other sites, and they just say I'm schizophrenic or crazy. I've gone through numerous psychological tests and there was nothing out of the ordinary aside from times when I thought I could predict the future or control the weather when I was a kid, but I think that's kind of normal. Would shrooms or DMT be a good idea as a medium through which to communicate with this entity?
I've told others about this on other sites, and they just say I'm schizophrenic or crazy. I've gone through numerous psychological tests and there was nothing out of the ordinary aside from times when I thought I could predict the future or control the weather when I was a kid, but I think that's kind of normal. Would shrooms or DMT be a good idea as a medium through which to communicate with this entity?