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The Big & Dandy Methoxetamine / MXE Thread - Holey Shit no. 15

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Why is it that mxe and me seems to lead to spiritual growth... Ketamine puts me in the high chair and feeds the universe to me... MXE... The universe unfolds itself to me in ways I just can't describe. It's like the MXE becomes the center of the reality of me. And everything revolves around that reality. I can't really explain it but when I'm on me the stupidest shit happens... Like... The hole... Is me?

Anyway I snorted some to see... I have to say it's not inactive.... I'm buzzing hard... That was like 20mg...didnt ha E a dollar bill so I pulled apart a syringe and did it that way. Very much in. Very little burn. Was trying to scale some 4-HO-MET and ummm... Yeah.... I am anywhere between 8 and 12mg coming up.

Fuck it. Shpongle time. And in less than 12 hours I'm supposed to have an ecg.... And then I have to tell them why I think an echo needs to be done then I need to eat the 50 or 60mg of Valium it will take to let them touch that spot. Fucking panic attacks every time I have shit running up my sternum.... I'm a skinny dude though so an echo should be light? My roommate says they grind it in but I'm 6'1 180 he's 6'2 before leg loss and about 360
 
Not convinced that mxe doesn't pack a punch when snorted. I certainly went into some type of hole where I saw myself and everyone standing around prodding my heart. God damn it, I have to do the damn echo and just hold my roommates hand through the pain because this Holter isn't going to show shit. Because I'm not active. But whatever hole or trip or whatever you want to call it just flat out told me my hearts fine and I need to let it go and do the damn echo as a formality...... You guys don't understand I can't even rub my own sternum without giving myself a panic attack....
 
The day after my divine experience with MXE I'm still f*cking elated. It's the flesh of the gods. I don't even care about LSD anymore. MXE is the good parts of LSD wrapped up with a bunch of other good stuff. There's no shaking, no nausea no nothing like that. I wish I had a kilo of it so I would never run out. Glad I bought that 5 gram bag when I did because it's getting scarce and I can't get it at the remarkably low price I got it for then, if at all. As the Geico gecko would say, it's brilliant. The guy who invented MXE is far above Albert Hofmann in my book. I can't even believe how great this chemical is. No nose burn even. Literally the only bad points are the bitter taste and the thirst and frequent urination, and I can live with those. The lack of hunger is actually getting the fat off my belly. Just need to force some food into myself now and then, that's all. I have never been happier in my life. I have a job I like with virtually no work involved and now I found the greatest drug ever invented. Life is good.
 
To highlight some recent points.
Truth serum, yes
Flesh of the gods,yes.
Leading to spiritual growth, yes.

If MXE does not facilitate finding genuine happiness, you are doing it wrong (or maybe not have the best MXE, also possible, I've had more than one batch that didn't agree with me quite as well). It shows you the path and you know you must follow it- If you don't, you won't find the key.
It should be looked upon less as a drug by itself, and more as a discipline, a force to be wielded, and a tool for programming.
The lessons and experience grow over time and shape the power of your force.
But be careful to give the force periodic rests. Small rests and big rests. You can't train every day.
 
That video I posted is perfect music for an MXE trip. It's like alien music or something. Goes right through your body. I'm going to download it in case it ever goes off YouTube. It's perfect.
 
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I just got so from reality it was unbelievable. MXE completely warped the universe. I almost didn't come back that time. Oh man that was intense.
 
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MXE is a serious drug. It feels great but it can get pretty damn extreme.
 
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Xorkoth said:
Haha, yeah, that sounds about right. :)
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Nothing new to you, I'm sure. Reality was taking whatever form my mind invented. I was seeing stuff on TV channels that I know for sure weren't real channels. I thought I would never get back to the original form of the universe. I wonder if it would be possible for me to be stuck eternally in some alternate reality.
 
I don't think it is possible... I've been to places where many times I thought it was possible, or that it was in fact happening or going to happen, but I've always come back. Something seems to drag us back to normalcy eventually.

Unless it doesn't. ;)
 
The only complaint I have with MXE is that it is impossible to hide that I'm on it because even low doses make it hard to talk properly. I normally enunciate quite well but MXE makes me talk like a preschooler and I can't form the words. It's a dead giveaway no other drug had. Even third plateau doses of DXM didn't mess my speech up so badly.

I agree with everything else about me which makes me glad I placed the orders I did. I have to watch myself with it though, it does have a draw to compulsively redose or make excuses for dosing days in a row. Do we know if this has ketamines bladder issues or not?
 
I have two different batches from a Spanish supplier. Yellow and White(most recent batch).

I plugged some of my white batch last night, I holed. Felt like the good MXE i used to get last year.

Yellow stuff- I haven't holed on it yet. Might try it tonight.

The yellow seems fairly different from the white stuff at snorted/recreational doses, but then again I am eyeballing my doses since my scale broke. Got another scale on the way.

Anyone spot any differences between these two batches at hole doses?
 
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its sounds like you shouldn't be doing a bunch of RCs all the time. if you are having panic attacks and bloodpressure issues
 
I don't know what holing is like. I was fully conscious of my surroundings and everything, but it felt like I couldn't hold reality together so that everything made sense. I've had the same feeling on shrooms and salvia. I become frightened that I will stay that way forever and will never be able to get back to the way things were before. But yes, as Xorkoth said, I always do eventually get back to the way it was before. In fact, by now I should be able to have confidence that I will get back to reality every time it happens but still, when it's actually taking place I always manage to think that this time is the time when I really screwed up the universe for eternity because I took a weird chemical.

The scariest part is when I think I am realizing that the universe can't really exist. It's not really possible. I realize that the universe is really just me. There are no other real people or anything. It's just me and what I did was somehow create the universe by a trick. I managed to trick myself into creating the entire universe by getting myself to temporarily believe that it's possible. As long as I can trick myself into forgetting that's it's impossible for anything to exist, as logically you must all agree (because how can something come from nothing, right?), the universe can exist. But if ever I become conscious of the fact that the universe, my life and everything I am aware of, is not actually possible then the whole thing will collapse and it will go back to eternal nothingness. That's what brings on the extreme panic, the feeling that I'm getting close to remembering that it's all just a trick and nothing really exists. If I ever get all the way to no longer being fooled by my own trick, that will be the end of everything that ever existed or ever will exist. So far the trick is still working, but for how long?

The fact that the universe exists right now shows that I succeeded in formulating a complicated enough trick that it's still holding together. That was the greatest accomplishment I ever made, I figured out a way to make the universe exist even though in reality it's impossible. I made a trick so incredibly convoluted that I haven't been able to remember what it was yet, which thereby allows it to continue to work. I had to make it so complicated that I myself could never figure it out. Think how hard that would be. I also get the feeling that I created the universe numerous times before but all those times I hadn't made the trick complicated enough therefore they all collapsed and I had to start all over again, making it more and more complicated every time. That's why the universe seems so complex right now, with the galaxies going on and on seemingly without end, because this is the most complicated version yet. I made this one so complex that it will take a real long time for it to collapse due to the trick eventually failing to convince me that the universe is real. Maybe this one will actually work permanently. Maybe I made it so perfect this time that I will never fail to believe that the universe is real again and therefore it will never collapse.
 
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That's what I was thinking.
I'm sure others have the yellow batch from Spain. Can anyone confirm it's tiletamine? It definitely feels off, but like I said I have been eyeballing my doses.
 
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I find the yellow mxe.. To be much more open eye visual than even ketamine or DXM (third plateau exempted) but I haven't holed on it per se... With that said, it's definitely MXE. It has the same sparkle that I only get from MXE and it has that same compulsive nature that I've found MXE to have as well.

Now what is this about plugging MXE? How many milligrams into how many milliliters of water? I have 1mL syringes, water, and I have propylene glycol too if it's more soluble in that but oral isn't doing it with either the white batch from China or the slight yellow from Spain plus my mouth is starting to bleed so I'm beginning to think it to be caustic like mephedrone and a few others. If I can't hole on 100mg oral would 50mg be a good starting place? Getting various syringes is easy care Amazon although if I have to do 10 of the 1mL it really wouldn't be a big deal because they're tiny as long as it doesn't hit too quickly.

I can tell you I know about the universe paradigm... And I get it with both the yellow and the white from China even with the salt it appears to be cut with. I wonder if mixing the two is the key to a hole?
 
What reasoning have y'all to suggest that the yellow (I call it tan, it's tan guys) MXE is tiletamine? To me it feels plenty like its white salty predecessor, only cleaner feeling (i.e. less spinning, less visual focus inhibition). I'm more inclined to believe in polymorph variances than to believe that a well respected vendor would be sending everyone tiletamine. Is there any definite evidence to suggest one way or the other?
 
Well I just plugged 50mg of the yellow... Mixed right in with water. Tiletamine is not so soluble as to have 50mg go almost completely into solution in seconds in 1mL of water. 1mL syringe pulled up what little grains were left and that was inserted and I'm feeling something fast, this wasn't even 5 minutes ago. But I also have a hard time believing they would ship Tiletamine... Its something that has been sought out on the underground by itself for a long time they'd make more money selling it as Tiletamine. But this is already hitting me pretty hard... I think I'll be doing this roa from now on, 50mg oral is a waste...

Oh my... This is going to be something... I'm watching anime and its hitting me pretty damn hard... Whole body is buzzing, the feeling of unreality is hitting and I'm starting to sweat. 50mg orally wasn't doing much to me at all this is... Like ketamine... Starting to feel pulled in different directions and such...

Whatever the yellow stuff is... Plugged it is far more active than oral. I'm buzzing.... This is intense. Oral is a waste.
 
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