DrinksWithEvil
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Nov 25, 2009
- Messages
- 29,632
I first started posting In here in 2009 talking about my addictions and love problems
Now 5 years later it's worse I've fallen to a state of hopelessness 9 rehabs I am now on mmt it's going alright with a few slip ups,the women I can have I don't want. I'm a smart,funny, good looking guy but something inside of me holds me back from my true potential i know I can be an amazing person and husband
Im just lost am i one of those people who are just lost forever ? I look at the homeless on the street and relate with them since I was homeless i feel like I can't connect with normal Starbucks drinking people
I have hep c from my heroin I'v days and I saw the prices for medication and it's 100k and that's not even a guarantee it will get rid of it and we can barely afford rent
It's like I should just die to save my family the money and sadness
Dunno just rambling
Now 5 years later it's worse I've fallen to a state of hopelessness 9 rehabs I am now on mmt it's going alright with a few slip ups,the women I can have I don't want. I'm a smart,funny, good looking guy but something inside of me holds me back from my true potential i know I can be an amazing person and husband
Im just lost am i one of those people who are just lost forever ? I look at the homeless on the street and relate with them since I was homeless i feel like I can't connect with normal Starbucks drinking people
I have hep c from my heroin I'v days and I saw the prices for medication and it's 100k and that's not even a guarantee it will get rid of it and we can barely afford rent
It's like I should just die to save my family the money and sadness
Dunno just rambling