hey guys I wanted to ask to some of the more frequent users (so everyone who didn't get ill from a single pill), in retrospect, do you feel like you might have known this was coming? I, for instance, was reacting a bit different to weed for like a month or two three before I got sick. I was also pacing my room a lot. I still felt relaxed and happy though. Maybe the pills were all ready getting to me a bit. Can anyone relate?
For about 3 or 4 months beforehand, I began to experience severe bouts of insomnia, to the point where the only way I could fall asleep was with sleeping pills.
It was a very stressful time for me. I was dealing with family issues at home; work became more and more of a mess due to poor management and some key people leaving, which meant our workload increased two to threefold mainly because of corporate clients. Furthermore, I was doing the weekend warrior thing as well, while also trying to get in an hour or two of exercise on weekdays.
Then one day all hell broke loose, so to speak. And then the day after, I was spent in every way possible. And from then on, it took me about 19 months to get back to feeling normal.
So yeah, I suppose I did sense something was wrong, and that it would only get worse if I didn't drop the party lifestyle, but I was blinded by living in the moment (I was a reckless idiot - plain and simple). Thank goodness I'm still alive after some of the shit I pulled, and I"m not gloating at all here (some really stupid, knuckleheaded behavior on my part).
Speaking of knuckleheaded - since I've recovered, I've used MDMA on a few occasions (about 5 or 6 times over the past 7 years) and have not experienced anymore LTCs. However, I was extremely careful to buy the purest product available, and to have it tested repeatedly before actually consuming it (and to not overdo it + to make sure other potential risks were addressed completely every time).
There was a period of about 3 years where I didn't use any "ecstasy" because I wasn't satisfied with what was available (as it was very shoddy looking crap); wasn't satisfied because I'm not willing to increase the risk involved by way of eating any pill, capsule, powder, and/or shards that I come across. There's way too much bunk out there now. No way in hell I'm gonna risk it like I did over a decade ago (and even back then I shouldn't have risked it either, but what's done is done unfortunately).
I wish everyone else would be more cautious as well, because there will always be another party or rave, but based on my own experiences I can totally relate why someone would not wanna wait. And with all the shit being passed around as if it's "the purest molly ever" (when in fact it's most likely some obscure research chemical) - it's tragic really, but sorry for veering off topic.