roxyroller
Greenlighter
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- Jul 30, 2012
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hey yall,i been reading thru here quite a bit and finally registered and decided to post....i am 21 days into a cold turkey wd coming off 5 years straight of about 120-160mgs a day....i cannot begin to explain how ridiculous this has been for me...i literally went insane on around day 6,of course i chipped with 2 percs....then again day 12....the physical wd was horrendous,but nothing in comparison to the mental torture and anguish i have and still am going thru.The anxiety was excruciating...i couldnt even watch tv i just couldnt concentrate on anything,my mind was going a million miles a minute i was just overrun with negativity.i went to the docs and got a scrip for some zoplicone to sleep as i didnt sleep for 5 days straight along with some KPIN which has been a godsend.....i have been taking them 0.75mg for 3 days then off for 2 the last thing i need is a benzo addiction.
Anyways,physically im ok now,however the depression is crippling...i find it very hard to get anything done and have no concentration at all....been tryin to go hang with friends and such but just feel like im some kind of mental patient on a day pass...nobody knows about this except 3 very close girlfriends who have been supportive...but 2 of which are hooked on percs and still wont quit even seeing what im going thru.,...theyr scared as hell lol!!!!!....im getting to think i fried my brain and this is it for me!!!....anybody have any advice??i know the excercise part yes i been walkin the dog 5miles a day and nothing is helping....was considering starting an ssri...i was perscribed one 10 years ago and refused....drinking and partying seemed to do the trick((
only good thing to come of this hellish oirdeal is i lost about 25 pounds and look good lol...i am DONE with the pills..im fully committed i just wanna feel somewhat normal again....considering effexor or paxil....
5 year habit...100-160mg a day mostly percocet but when dry oc40,oc80,fetanyl greens,hydro20 footys etc....mostly just a popper but would buck a 40 here and there on special occasions lol....this shits an EPIDEMIC where i live....100s of my friends are wacked out on this SHIT!!!
i just got my bloodwork back...i told my doc exactly what was up and i was extremely worried about my liver....by the mercy of GOD himself my liver enzymes were only 80...which is just above normal and kidney function was perfect....i almost couldnt believe it and asked if the may have mixed up my samples with someone else's lol...wow...i had actually convinced myself my liver was toast which was a main reason for getting clean...
ANYWAYS "slainte mhaith" and thanks for the response in advance.....TO THE LOST!!!
Anyways,physically im ok now,however the depression is crippling...i find it very hard to get anything done and have no concentration at all....been tryin to go hang with friends and such but just feel like im some kind of mental patient on a day pass...nobody knows about this except 3 very close girlfriends who have been supportive...but 2 of which are hooked on percs and still wont quit even seeing what im going thru.,...theyr scared as hell lol!!!!!....im getting to think i fried my brain and this is it for me!!!....anybody have any advice??i know the excercise part yes i been walkin the dog 5miles a day and nothing is helping....was considering starting an ssri...i was perscribed one 10 years ago and refused....drinking and partying seemed to do the trick((
only good thing to come of this hellish oirdeal is i lost about 25 pounds and look good lol...i am DONE with the pills..im fully committed i just wanna feel somewhat normal again....considering effexor or paxil....
5 year habit...100-160mg a day mostly percocet but when dry oc40,oc80,fetanyl greens,hydro20 footys etc....mostly just a popper but would buck a 40 here and there on special occasions lol....this shits an EPIDEMIC where i live....100s of my friends are wacked out on this SHIT!!!
i just got my bloodwork back...i told my doc exactly what was up and i was extremely worried about my liver....by the mercy of GOD himself my liver enzymes were only 80...which is just above normal and kidney function was perfect....i almost couldnt believe it and asked if the may have mixed up my samples with someone else's lol...wow...i had actually convinced myself my liver was toast which was a main reason for getting clean...
ANYWAYS "slainte mhaith" and thanks for the response in advance.....TO THE LOST!!!
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