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Cocaine Why I never touched it again

Jwilder0311

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My “DOC” has always been opiates. However, I got to a point where I was so over the lifestyle that I decided to try and quit. If you are like me then you know how this goes. You look for any way out that presents as little sickness as possible. How is that usually done? Often times by finding a new vice. For me it was cocaine. I started with the powder first and of course it worked. I was off opiates. However, my new vice proved to be way worse in my opinion. The cocaine was great but it often times sent me into panic attacks. Which then led me to using benzo’s to alleviate the comedowns. Now I am addicted to two monsters. This then led to a shortage of powder. My dealer said, “well have you tried hard?” I hadn’t and he assured me it hit faster and harder. It did. I loved it. This led to me being the worst me I have ever been. I would do anything to get it and of course the addiction to benzo’s just escalated. I couldn’t have one without the other. The things I would do for it were just not my usual behavior. When I say it seemed to turn me into a monster I mean that in ever way possible. One day while using I collapsed. I went to the doctor and it turned out that I was putting way too much of a strain on my heart and body. He told me, “You can’t keep this up much longer before your body has enough.” If I didn’t quit I would surely die. You see, opiates never got me to the point cocaine did. Obviously, it wasn’t healthy for me and all drugs lead to one of three things...death, rehab or jail. None of which I wanted. The cocaine just seemed to be leading to these at a much faster pace. It came to a point of so much fear and hatred towards it that I finally told my girlfriend, “never again” and that actually took. From that day I never touched cocaine again. For me it was the worst or the worst. That may not be the case for others, but for me it was surely the devils drug. It took me down through there. I still struggle today with opiates l, but it’s managed a lot better and it has never done to me what cocaine did. I don’t know what led to me writing this post, but maybe in some weird way it will help someone else. Cheers.
 

Etterwonde

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Good luck. Which Opioids are you currently (ab)using?

Coke is expensive and shitty. If you want a decent stimulant, go for something like N-Ethyl Pentedrone.
 

Atelier3

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Yeah. Cocaine chewed up several of my 9 lives. Bankrupted me. Cost me a wife. Killed my career. In my view it is one of the least functional drugs once he start hitting it hard. Probably shaved a few years off my life too although my heart checks out ok at present. Congratulations on being able to stop it completely. It took me a lot of rehab and a lot of psychiatry to finally rid myself off it but when I did I never touched it again.
 

Anonymous Dissident

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Getting off of cocaine was one of the best things I've ever done for my health, both mentally and physically. The stress of massive amounts of coke daily combined with the anxiety stemming from having to deal coke and MDMA to support my habit was just too rough after a few years. Noone could possibly pay me enough to get me to even consider doing cocaine again. Coke seems amazing, until it really gets its hooks into you. Once you get to that point, you'll do profoundly stupid shit (like dealing massive quantities of drugs) to keep yourself supplied. If anyone ever takes something away from my posts, I really hope that they can help someone from going down the road I took...
 

Shady's Fox

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Yeah. Cocaine chewed up several of my 9 lives. Bankrupted me. Cost me a wife. Killed my career. In my view it is one of the least functional drugs once he start hitting it hard. Probably shaved a few years off my life too although my heart checks out ok at present. Congratulations on being able to stop it completely. It took me a lot of rehab and a lot of psychiatry to finally rid myself off it but when I did I never touched it again.
Many can't grasp the difference between addiction and recreational.
 

nznity

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Getting off of cocaine was one of the best things I've ever done for my health, both mentally and physically. The stress of massive amounts of coke daily combined with the anxiety stemming from having to deal coke and MDMA to support my habit was just too rough after a few years. Noone could possibly pay me enough to get me to even consider doing cocaine again. Coke seems amazing, until it really gets its hooks into you. Once you get to that point, you'll do profoundly stupid shit (like dealing massive quantities of drugs) to keep yourself supplied. If anyone ever takes something away from my posts, I really hope that they can help someone from going down the road I took...
man you just reminded me of one day, one month before iw ent to rehab for the first time(involutanrily of course at the age of 20) I was injecting massive amounts of blow, doing mdma regularly(up to 4 times a month) and banging morphine evreydayy....I remember after a 10g coke binge with a buddy of mine....I WOKE up feeling the coke comedown, morphine wds and MDMA comedown aswell. DUDE i felt like a fucking dementor had sucked my soul out of muyself. I WENT STRAIGHT to buy 5 amopoules of pure morphine in a cab to my dealer's house at 7am. Dude i've never a comedown like thate ever in my life again. At laest the morphine took the pain/anxiety/stress,depression,etc. all ato once. I felt suicidal to say the least. That's why i don't touch IV coke again and i only do MDMA on SUPER SPECIAL OCASSIONS nowdays. same with morphine i only chip everyonce ina while. Well that 100mg shot( i did 5 ampoules at once at 8am) took everything away. I love morphine lol.
 

nznity

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Cocaine makes people behave like fucking manic psychos. Im starting to get fucking Fed up with it. There's better drugs out there than coke. AND if you do coke, you Needa know how to do it. I hate people who get belligerent on it.
 

Jwilder0311

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Getting off of cocaine was one of the best things I've ever done for my health, both mentally and physically. The stress of massive amounts of coke daily combined with the anxiety stemming from having to deal coke and MDMA to support my habit was just too rough after a few years. Noone could possibly pay me enough to get me to even consider doing cocaine again. Coke seems amazing, until it really gets its hooks into you. Once you get to that point, you'll do profoundly stupid shit (like dealing massive quantities of drugs) to keep yourself supplied. If anyone ever takes something away from my posts, I really hope that they can help someone from going down the road I took...
Very well said!
 
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