I was child and teen like everyone else. in the first years i could take amphetamine and hash, and coke, and ecstasy no problems.
But then i could not anymore.
The stimulants give me anxiety now. It have left me with permanent damage on the brain. I have lover cognitive function.
But i just dont understand. How can i break my brain?
It happened when i was 18.. i had a panic attack, and then i could no more.
Then i waited and waited. It didnt return to normal. Stress and anxiety every day. The last 10 years. Then i started on methadone, and i take benzos on the site.
I had not taken amphetamine or mdma in 8 years, but the first 2 months, i actually could more or less. Take it again.
But now i cant again.
I know this is gonna stick with me forever. I am om methadone, and taking benzos just to function. WIthout medicine im a mess. I am just a couch potato, because i cant function socially like i could wheni was young.
Does anyone has any advice for me? I have tried so many times to quit benxos, but i cant. they are the only thing that can help me stress down.
I am 30 today. I feel like i have wasted the last 10 years on being sick. Someone with a similar experience? Any advice?
But then i could not anymore.
The stimulants give me anxiety now. It have left me with permanent damage on the brain. I have lover cognitive function.
But i just dont understand. How can i break my brain?
It happened when i was 18.. i had a panic attack, and then i could no more.
Then i waited and waited. It didnt return to normal. Stress and anxiety every day. The last 10 years. Then i started on methadone, and i take benzos on the site.
I had not taken amphetamine or mdma in 8 years, but the first 2 months, i actually could more or less. Take it again.
But now i cant again.
I know this is gonna stick with me forever. I am om methadone, and taking benzos just to function. WIthout medicine im a mess. I am just a couch potato, because i cant function socially like i could wheni was young.
Does anyone has any advice for me? I have tried so many times to quit benxos, but i cant. they are the only thing that can help me stress down.
I am 30 today. I feel like i have wasted the last 10 years on being sick. Someone with a similar experience? Any advice?