My point exactly; benzos aren't well-suited to long-term daily dosing. Beyond the obvious issues of rampant tolerance increase, it's simply too challenging for a lot of individuals with an anxiety disorder (self included) to responsibly and consistently dose comfort-on-demand.
Im on crystal meth and alcohol, laying back in a different kind of dream world. Its called a living nightmare as I wade out the shallows into a black ocean of stimulant psychosis. It’s odiferous in hellview, sulfuric with the stench of rampant alcoholism. I’m impending vagrancy, about to hit an iceberg for the 100th time today. The end destination is river styx if Im lucky, but more likely the void. Less than nothing. Nihil.
I got anxiety reading that, that's horrible, it's like me paying good money just to have a terrifying K hole, I just think "I paid such in such to feel like that, what a waste" and other times it's crap weak shite, then maybe once in a blue moon it's good, fuck that nah not happening I quit, or having a decent long break
Its a cycle like that with these drugs - yeah. You kind of captured addiction in a nutshell there. Not long ago some MDMA I ordered was substituted with K because my dealer ran out of MDMA. Then the bonehead forgot to tell me. 2 fat rails later Im almost in a K hole fucking terrified. I called a friend and the next hour was terrible. K is a bizarre drug to be on to begin with, and downright nightmare in itself when its going wrong.
Its the same here, nowadays anyway. I probably could’ve deduced that if I was paying more attention. I use neither drug very often though. Used K and Extacy much more 10-15 years ago. So Im more used to the image of K from years ago being powder and MDMA in Extacy tabs. Only times I did molly around my early 20s it was in capsules. I guess when I started buying it again from this guy and both were shard form, the color wasnt making a difference to me. Id just trusted him too because he had been top notch to me for awhile at that point.
Pinkies out
