Recently had some magic, major thanks to the person that made it possible (you know who you are). I have to say, I feel a little incomplete, in a sense, to post about it since when I did roll on the magic we werent in a position to blast music as I normally love to do, so the comparison doesnt feel completely ready yet, but it has been a very long time since I felt the way that I did.
The molly that i've had for the past 5 or so years hasnt been bad per se, but there was a point in time when I noticed that our experiences would all of a sudden hit a very noticeable drop at the two hour mark. If you dropped another dose before, it would generally be fine, but still eventually, like clockwork, you'd have an immediate drop in the experience and would be left wanting more. Music was still amazing on this stuff, absolutely massive sounds that felt like the roof was blowing off. Absolute eye wiggles and euphoria, there wasn't really a "rolly" aspect. It was a wall of pleasure that had you floored and then it would rug-pull after some time.
Now that I recently rolled on some magic, i'm reminded of what I've been missing and how things contrast. I understand what people mean when they say they feel like theyre "just fucked up" on the non-magic. Its not to say thats a bad thing imo, and my updated hypothesis is that the level of serotonin release is probably similar overall, but at a different cadence, duration, and concentration. The "non-magic" stuff I think just concentrates things at the beginning, like lighting a screaming whistler, it comes non-stop all at once and then fizzles. Magic MDMA though is like lighting a giant sparkler. The term "rolling" actually becomes obviously apparent, you get rolling waves of pleasure for easily the entire duration of 4-5 hours and the kicker is that when your noticeably coming dowm and hit your "lows" of the rolling hills, youre still doing great and clearly "in the zone", you dont have the almost irritable level of thought of hitting another dose like on the non-magic mdma. I was perfectly content with the 120+60 I took and for the first time in a very very long time, didn't really feel compelled to redose (maybe had the thought cross my mind ones or twice, but nothing so yearning). I should also note it just feels incredibly clean and clear headed, I think to an extent, it was harder to get footing to start because I was mentally ready for the "completely fucked up" high.
Now another big variable - feeling sleepy vs not. Non-magic would definitely give me a sleepy fucked up feel, esp at the end of the night you almost wanted to be sleepy because it would blend with the good feeling. I would only want to sit down. The magic? I for once felt like i could actually dance if i were at a show, i didnt feel tweaked, but i was just very clearly and cleanly awake.
Oh, just one more - the next day i felt 100. Great positive outlook, felt ready to take on the day, i ate a huge lunch which normally is close to impossible. The day after that? I was totally dead, felt the blues like i havent since i rolled an irresponsible amount two days in a row years ago. I havent afterglowed like that since my first roll ever.
Now for the potential variables for the skeptics: it has been a long time since ive done a 120+half, ive generally just been hitting something like a 120+120 at 1.5-2hr mark, then I would just get absolutely pasted to the floor. It could be a less is more situation and maybe I just needed to go full+half, this whole time.
I dont think that is the case tho since i would still always seem to hit a point where it would just fall off. I thought of the rolling chart questionnaire while I was rolling this time and if i were to pick what i would consider the end of the roll on non-magic, it was definitely the 2 hour point. However, on the magic? Unquestionably 4+. Of course this is biased as Im only comparing one dose to one with a booster half....but the drop-off is so non-existent with the magic....That was a clear difference and im convinced that if i only hit the one, it wouldve still gone that long, just not as intense, but maybe it just made me feel/think that...but isnt that the point? Some part of me wonders if you can really call the non-magic mdma rolling....more like blasting.
Anyways, thank you for coming to my Ted Talk. Peace -