- Apr 6, 2021
I think you can find out a lot from your dreams, sometimes I enjoy having nightmares because it can reveal if you need to change something. I kind of think of all dreams as movies, there's always a message in them that can unclot your mind. It's like a recount of your recent memories, I think the two are very simillar.I know there's a connection between Deja Vus and repressed memory.
I've blocked out most of my childhood, I never really remembered much of it, and usually have a very good memory.
However, sometimes, there are certain phrases, or situations, one time just a room, that trigger something in my head, and I know it's from my past, but I'm not entirely sure what it is. I know from my sisters that my dad apparently almost choked me to death when I was 3 or 4, this is the event that I think started all this. When I get these triggers it feels like I've seen/heard it all before, and there's voices screaming, someone saying my name over and over, and some obscure children's song I just can't identify. Maybe I'm just whack. The children's song especially, there's something fucking weird about it. I came in contact with it in 2013 for the last time, and I do not remember anything after that, and almost nothing before. But I can't remember the song either. It was sung in a high voice, and it had my name in it(?)
My brain actively blocks this out, so when I stumble upon something that gives me that Deja Vu, I will have forgotten about it very fast, within seconds, or what seems like seconds. I'm glad I didn't really come into contact with any of this in the last few years. I stumbled upon it during my peyote phase, but I don't know how. I think someone said my full name? I only know that I don't remember much, except for being fucking afraid, all of a sudden.
Don't know too much about dreams and deja vus. I don't enjoy dreaming, and I try not to.