You have no reason to apologize to me. Is it neuropathy? I had that & it is beyond painful. I was diagnosed in 2013 (pre drug abuse) & 6 months later it vanished. Then in September of 2019 it came back. That's when I started up with Meth. It came back with a vengeance. I feel your pain my friend & the doctors are idiots when it comes to nerve pain. They don't know shit about shit. The 2nd wave cost me my career, I could not stand on my feet for 8 hours. I finally broke down & saw a pain management doctor. He prescribed hydrocodone. It only seemed to help if I took it with a benzo. I did this combo for awhile & then poof! The pain, the agonizing invisible disease went away. Anyway I didn't mean to talk over you but I feel real bad for you & wanted to let you know your feelings are valid. Please don't give up, I'm here if you need to vent/talk. Stay strong.Well my heart stopped a couple years ago so they used one of those shockers with the paddles to bring me back to alive and I lived but that's when my feet started hurting. I got sober that day too. Near death was enough for me, but my doctor thinks my feet were damaged from meth which is why I didn't notice they hurt, I was high... which I do not agree with. The other possibility I figured out is my coppers been low for at least a year and the last positive test I had where my copper was normal was five years ago. Copper can cause nerve damage and pain forever. As I'm in the middle of a real mess of doctor visits and painful tests all I can say is I can't wear socks right now my feet hurt so bad and sadly no one will give me more pain meds what's worse my pain is getting worse and I already deal with a lot of stress from gastric bypass, in the end I am responsible for my self is just my energy level is so low I can't even order stuff right now or shop for a new car it's hard to just make breakfast today. I have not eaten my egg sandwich on three days because I can't make it.... Maybe I will today but anyways back to your question it's bad enough it effects my balance and yea I've dealt with it a year now. I just need my blood tests to ask be normal and they're not and what is confusing me is why none of my doctor's so much at have a recommendation for me as to how to fix anything let alone a bunch of things. White blood count for example wouldn't your think every doctor would have a opinion?, nope it's wait a month to talk to your gastric bypass doctor who's charging me 300$ he did say I don't need to worry they all say that but my tests aren't made up and lots my stuff is really low. It doesn't help copper effects your ability to think. To remember. So I could really use a helper in this like I'm starting to get scared which doesn't look good in 6"3 and being scared brings up bad memories of doing meth. I just want to fix the pain today with a magic pill. Yikes. That doesn't sound right but I am considering checking myself into the hospital. I'll get blood tests again soon but everything's taking so much time.
Even if it's just a I hope it works out for you buddy, it would help me right now.
I just feel like all these doctors don't care if I die, why would they there busy enough there's someone to take my place... Maybe it's the pain making me annoying. Sorry
Suddenly, me waking at 4:10am to get ready and drive down the road a minute to work at 5 doesn't seem so bad. Good lord man, that is brutal. Hope you're getting enough sleep, I know I don't.wake up at 2:00 am get dressed shit brush teeth make coffee make lunch and hop in the truck for 3 to drive up into the mountains. logging by 5 am. call it morning or night i don't know anymore that line was blurred a loooooong time ago
ahaha no it's not so bad. you get used to it. 5 hours a night is the magic number. any less after a couple weeks ya start to get real tired. it's hard to get proper sleep i hear that!Suddenly, me waking at 4:10am to get ready and drive down the road a minute to work at 5 doesn't seem so bad. Good lord man, that is brutal. Hope you're getting enough sleep, I know I don't.
i hear birds outside and think, why won't those motherfuckers just STFU? what are they so happy about anyway?
“Birds are and always have been reincarnated old men with Tourette's syndrome having somehow managed to dupe the reproductive saga. They fuck each other and tend to their home repairs and children while never missing their true mission. To scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth. They know the truth. Screaming bloody murder all over the world in our ears, but sadly we don't speak bird.”
― Kurt Cobain, Journals