I don't care who believes me or not but I've been up for seven days straight on rx amphetamine salts. I was feeling like absolute hell most of last night because the 30mg adds weren't really giving me effects but they kept me awake. I would feel horrible and then take one and just feel normal ish
Well i really didn't plan on staying awake for a week but one thing led to another and it happened, but I'll save the horrid details for another thread. So anyways i had maybe five subutex through outthe week and every time it truly felt amazing. My eyes would flutter, and euphoria rushed through my body. It was mostly doing iv shots of 15mg amphetamine mixed with 2mg buprenorphine while already tweaking. You would expect a huge rush but both amps and hope have a delayed rush when ivd. But delayed or not it really worked well. I think it might have had such a pronounced synergy because i do believe but has some effect on the dopamine system,b more so than most opiates at least. Journalism's pleasure stems largely from dopamine, a well known fact
It is actually neurotoxic because it is a weak base and after the brain uses it, dop oxidizes.
Back on topic, when the sun game up this morning i was actually thinking death would be between, i never felt worse in my life
Withdrawing from bup and feeling tired ashell, yet couldn't sleep because of the adds that stopped gettingme high. Why did i continue taking them? Well i was dreading the comedown I'm headed for, that's how it got this far. If you don't know what it's like being up for a week on amphetamine, i would say that day 5 and would consist of a state of psychosis mixed with an overall feeling of depression and poor health. Its kind of like my brain was focused on my droid cell phone while my bodyfed amphetamine to my mouth like a conditioned monkey when i would start to crash . Well this morning was the worst i ever felt in my life and I've went through some pretty horrible withdrawals. This is because i attempted to stop taking it so i could maybe get some sleep. Well i started coming down so hard that i couldn't deal and popped 60 more mg of speed in a defeated state. It gave me a small high but the bup withdrawal started to be a little much so i rummaged through my room hoping to find some cottons to rinse from my shots earlier in t week. Then there it was, a chunk of bup about 2mg in size. It i was too jittery to shoot it. Do i threw it under my tongue, laid back down on my bed and started reading the wiki article on my android while i waited for the sub to take away the. Sickness. Well about an hour later i became so overwhelmed with euphoria that i couldn't fuckin believe it
Maybe it was an extra special high because i was so depressed over the whole situation of tweaking for a week. Lingered m mixed with being dope sick, that a rushing high like thatwas welcomed with b open arms. But as i was writing this it started wearing off
Now the intense high is l long gone and I'm crashing hard
I don't know what I'm going to do
I am struggling to not pass out of drop dead because my girlfriend is bringing me ten subs at 3 and it's 9 am. I know if i fall asleep there is no way i will be able to e wake up for the subutex. I'm in bad shape guys
The cell phone touch screen that i am using appears warped in amanor that is making the writing very awkward.. i am having delusions. I actually thought my dad was in here talking to me. I have severe depression, anxiety, and staying awake is starting to get extremely painful
. AlsoI'm nauseated when iv look at this v cell phone and realize I've been open it for a breaking week with no sleep. It is becoming almost impossible to typeon this tough screen. This is way too long, i only intended on tellingabout. My glowing experience now I'm pretty much crying v for help. What should i do to stop feeling like i need to stay awake for the bulge that's coming later also i don't want to fall asleep, malnurished and dehydrated
Ok writing this is almost impossible now. Please give advice. I I'm going to take another
30the to keep me up until at least some one replied. I'm sorry this was so long but I'm spunthe help out. Definitely in. Amphetamine psychosis. Please reply or even email me with help our advice
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