I was in the rehab for six months. I just relapse and it?s a secret.
My DOC is meth and I inject it.
This substance is really powerful that I chose to spend my time getting high. Due to my fear of getting back to the rehab I did my best to shoot my self secretly. Hiding my stash safely.
I just realised today looking at my poor arms how stupid I am. I abused my body and didn?t care about the outcome. I didn?t follow any harm reduction. I?m in this stage I just want to poke myself over and over again. My marks and bruises are very visible. I hide it with make up and long sleeves. I feel angry at myself and at the same time so sorry I have to be in this desperate time of my life. My mind is locked. I?m ready to jeopardise everything but part of me is crying inside for help but scared of being locked again in the rehab. I want to stop but my body says no. I want to change but I can?t let go of my dear stash.
I have no support group. My family doesn?t understand. I?m hanging. Can I just let go of my grip and be at peace?
My DOC is meth and I inject it.
This substance is really powerful that I chose to spend my time getting high. Due to my fear of getting back to the rehab I did my best to shoot my self secretly. Hiding my stash safely.
I just realised today looking at my poor arms how stupid I am. I abused my body and didn?t care about the outcome. I didn?t follow any harm reduction. I?m in this stage I just want to poke myself over and over again. My marks and bruises are very visible. I hide it with make up and long sleeves. I feel angry at myself and at the same time so sorry I have to be in this desperate time of my life. My mind is locked. I?m ready to jeopardise everything but part of me is crying inside for help but scared of being locked again in the rehab. I want to stop but my body says no. I want to change but I can?t let go of my dear stash.
I have no support group. My family doesn?t understand. I?m hanging. Can I just let go of my grip and be at peace?