Careful what doctors you tell that to...when i close my eyes i see things that are not there. it confuses me and i don't realize that my eyes are closed. the things i see are crazy or sometimes they are somewhere else; that makes things very scary and confusing. i'm curious if it's permanent. if so, it's a big problem. that's the kind of thing doctors definitely cannot fix.
It is getting crazier for sure. I quit my job and was glad I had this virus thing to make me feel better about it or give them something to chew on as to why I quit without notice.Now I had heard that the coronavirus thing is gonna last until August...I cannot take this anymore as is.
I work retail and these people are going nuts over toilet paper.
Our shelves are almost empty and we sre restocking throughout the week but they keep hoarding.
I am canceling everything I have to do on Wednesday and if I can find any pure DXM after work doing that (one place I know has it locked up so they might have some). (Pls don’t tell me not to bc that does not help me tbh, thanks)
Yes people have been hoarding cough syrup also...like no you are not dying tomorrow chill out FFS.
I worked 11.1 hours (was at work for about 13 hours, had lunch and stuff so that is not counted as hours worked) on Sunday and it was madness.
They are ordering toilet paper online FFS, like staph.
I am so over this.
i've never been so confused in my entire life. i wanted this local needle exchange to switch from cottons to wheel filters. they're not going to. there's so many girls working there and they keep on texting me one thing or another. i can't keep them straight. i don't even know if i have a job right now or not, what i am addicted to, or what this virus means. my psychologist cant see me in person anymore because of the virus.
i need some clarity. i feel like things are ok but i'm not sure. and people keep on sending these things called memes which make no sense to me. i need to figure out what i'm physically dependent on so i can taper off. i don't even know what drugs i'm using.
why won't you? not using is a huge step in the right direction. the fear of using again will certainly always be there, but during times where i've made it a couple years without using, the noise fades to the point of no longer being annoying let alone terrifying.It makes me very sad to think that I will never really make it out of addiction and failure.
i have not been a good person. using drugs that make you confused while my dad is sick in a confusing way. from this point on i will not use anything except to taper off what i have to. i am sorry. all i want is for my dad to be ok. all i want is for my dad to be ok.