My plan for now is no pills. I’m just letting myself deal with life as though the pills don’t exist. The problem before was that the option to take a pill for pain was always there, so since I’m always in pain.......Just stay focused on your quality of life and your well being and everything else will fall into place. Stay safe, sane and as healthy as you can. If you have bad pain, pop a pill. If it's not too bad have an NSAID. If you are feeling pretty good, just have a bowl of ice cream !!
The only chance of any version of this working is if I don’t have that choice anymore. Not even if my pain is extreme. My goal here is to artificially create a life where there are no pills to be had. I didn’t even open the bag at the pharmacy so that the image of a full bottle wouldn’t be in my head. The last time I saw my pills was when I poured them out.