I feel I am a wretched creature and can handle being judged at least to an extent before I caved perhaps.
The universal language of my spiritual practice so to speak should heal me though. I might need a boost or I feel like that given how many times I have relapsed. More on that elsewhere though. Another day. Another week. Maybe another month or never I can't read the future but they who speak the universal language fully can.
It fits my mood because the mood is dark and kind of self-loathing and feeling like I am worthless and hated yet full of hope and positive despite that.