Its okay. You're gonna be alright. I'm sorry I'm getting a little heated myself.Wasn't really meaning to be wax poetic or prove anything. It was more about venting in a place where people would get it. I cannot talk like that in person because I'd be risking an involuntary hospital stay which are not fun especially when you have non drug related insomnia, zero benzo tolerance, and you keep getting the same 1mg Ativan dose which is still too small. I'm not surprised a patient there ended up committing a violent assault on a doctor or nurse.
Anyway, my posts this were made when I was supposed to be fast asleep and not mixing hard alcohol with benzo withdrawals and then blowing a few clouds to top everything off..emotions got pretty intense