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TripSitterNZ

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FUCK the world man ima embrace my dark aspects more stop been so fucking accepting and kind to everyone. This world is faker than Michael Jacksons nose. Through love comes pain then anger a fucking endless cycle of lies and a compulsion of a biochemical reaction in our fucking brains controlling us.

Fuck man i should of listened to myself every fucking time my highest sense of self is always fucking right for what's good for me and my lower primal urges take over and get me fucked over.

Not the right time at all for shit to come up like this. Why lord ya test me so much I might just fucking break and snap one day.

man why I have to go out and catch dumb as fucking feelings and get played man for months. Ima fucking over tryna cater for the world. Fuck it fuck it all.

Ima walk this path of life alone and alone it will be fuck it i don't even any other human been to justify my continued existence. Love is a lie the media has everybody like a sheep with the wool over their eyes.

Ima hit this fucking anger out in the gym and resist the urge to relapse on hardcore stims. I knew it was all a fucking lie man but i didn't wanna trust my inner most feelings and hurt and instead let myself get fooled. Over fake people fucking oath. i need some angry music house and psy music is to chill and makes me think more.

Fucking oath why do i even bother coming back to society its the same toxic landfill it always has been. Ima def drop the fuck out of it as soon as i possibly can and go back to been a free floating wizard in the universe.
 

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@Coffeeshroom that is SO awesome you volunteer at the SPCA! Do you have any pets?
Yeah i have 2 jack russels and had one bull terrier but i had to put her down last year cause she attacked and killed 2 dogs last year and bit the owner in process. Was a big civil court case but at the end it was ruled for me to put my dog down. Just because that bitch didn't walk her dogs with leaches.

But im looking now at getting 2 border collies maybe. Awesome and very family friendly dogs.
 

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Yeah i have 2 jack russels and had one bull terrier but i had to put her down last year cause she attacked and killed 2 dogs last year and bit the owner in process. Was a big civil court case but at the end it was ruled for me to put my dog down. Just because that bitch didn't walk her dogs with leaches.

But im looking now at getting 2 border collies maybe. Awesome and very family friendly dogs.
So sorry to hear about the bull terrier :( I LOVE bull terriers, they are such sweethearts.
My partner and I have 2 english staffies, and 2 cats. It's endlessly entertaining at our house :)
 

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Yeah i have 2 jack russels and had one bull terrier but i had to put her down last year cause she attacked and killed 2 dogs last year and bit the owner in process. Was a big civil court case but at the end it was ruled for me to put my dog down. Just because that bitch didn't walk her dogs with leaches.

But im looking now at getting 2 border collies maybe. Awesome and very family friendly dogs.
My former in laws had a couple border collies. They are sweet dogs but quite neurotic.
 

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today was meh. had a guy at work kind of get under my skin. i have the job where i do all the packages and such, and when new guys get in the treatment program i will mail their phones back home to their families. well this one guy got with the program staff and had me mail his phone back home, the guy ended up leaving the program on his own terms, then came into my office reaking of weed demanding i give his phone back. i calmly told him that i had sent it to whatever address he had listed.
he started to get upset and there wasn't anything else i could say or do to get the guy to calm down. so this led into a hollering match and told him to please leave the building. he refused to leave without his phone so i told him i'd go speak with my boss. I ended up calling the cops in the other room, and they showed up and escorted him off property.
I really hate doing that shit but what else can I do? I already told the guy that everything I knew about his phone, and yet he wasn't liking my answer. I knew the guy was high and just glad this didn't really get violent (which it could have).

I fucking hate it sometimes. Not really the work, but the anxiety I get from dealing with situations. Would like to get in to see an actual psych doctor to try some medications but havn't had any luck with that. Have been seeing a nurse nurse practitioner but all she wants to do is feed me zoloft (which i really said fuck that).
 

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Ima hit this fucking anger out in the gym and resist the urge to relapse on hardcore stims. I knew it was all a fucking lie man but i didn't wanna trust my inner most feelings and hurt and instead let myself get fooled. Over fake people fucking oath. i need some angry music house and psy music is to chill and makes me think more.
Man I dunno what happened, but I do know that smashing it out at the gym and listening to angry music always helps me when I'm fucking losing my shit! I hope you feel better today.
 

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I really hate doing that shit but what else can I do? I already told the guy that everything I knew about his phone, and yet he wasn't liking my answer. I knew the guy was high and just glad this didn't really get violent (which it could have).

I fucking hate it sometimes. Not really the work, but the anxiety I get from dealing with situations. Would like to get in to see an actual psych doctor to try some medications but havn't had any luck with that. Have been seeing a nurse nurse practitioner but all she wants to do is feed me zoloft (which i really said fuck that).
Dude....it sounds like you handled the situation PERFECTLY. It is completely natural to feel anxious and rattled after a confrontation like that, it's a normal reaction. It's called being human, you don't need meds for that :) <3 *hugs
 

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Yeah I've got Mondays off too man, it's good ay. Working today though (but I love my job :) ). What do you do for work?
 

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Yeah I've got Mondays off too man, it's good ay. Working today though (but I love my job :) ). What do you do for work?
I fix people's home security systems. It's not the best job in the world, but it's fairly easy and it pays well enough. Plus for the most part I'm unsupervised so I can work at my own pace and have a bit of freedom. I've got Monday's off so I'm just lounging today, kinda bored.

What is it you do?
 

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I fix people's home security systems. It's not the best job in the world, but it's fairly easy and it pays well enough. Plus for the most part I'm unsupervised so I can work at my own pace and have a bit of freedom. I've got Monday's off so I'm just lounging today, kinda bored.

What is it you do?
Excellent :) That's exactly the kinda job you want hey, not too stressful, no one hovering over you telling you what to do, 3-day weekends, LIVIN' THE DREAM MAH MAN!

I am a veterinary technician. I've been a vet tech for 18 years on and off, and have done a few different things here and there like human medical research (HIV treatment studies), call centre for NRMA (which is our version of AAA), I was a National Sales Manager for veterinary pharmaceuticals for a while, but I always come back to vet tech cos I fucking love it <3
 

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Excellent :) That's exactly the kinda job you want hey, not too stressful, no one hovering over you telling you what to do, 3-day weekends, LIVIN' THE DREAM MAH MAN!

I am a veterinary technician. I've been a vet tech for 18 years on and off, and have done a few different things here and there like human medical research (HIV treatment studies), call centre for NRMA (which is our version of AAA), I was a National Sales Manager for veterinary pharmaceuticals for a while, but I always come back to vet tech cos I fucking love it <3
Well, technically only 2 days, sun and mon, and i work a lot of ot on the days i do work.

Oh awesome, yeah I know a little about that life, my ex-wife worked in animal shelters, and was a vet nurse for a time.
 

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Oh cool! Did you have a house full of animals as well then?
Managed to limit it to just two kitty cats we adopted from the rescue. I put the nix on the doggo because he didn't seem to like me very much and I really didn't want to commit to a dog. I sure miss those cats though. We named them after Batman and Catwoman.
 

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man each day my mood is fucking swinging around so much. But somehow i managing to just hang in there and keep up with studies. Though gotta love fake people man haha fuck them goes from wanting to hang out to just eat my food and stuff every day and other things to not even a message asking how im doing xD after reaching out for help. Im glad i got to see one of my realest and closest friends on tuesday though. He helped me out big time over so many years we go all the way back as little kids in the hood egging houses haha.
 
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