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The bigger my stash, the less I use

jimdron

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Anyone experiencing this dynamic?

What I mean is very simple. If I purchase substantial quantity of my favorite drug, it's easier to stick to schedule (so that it won't get out of hand). Psychologically it probably can be explained in that I feel safer in not running out of my "medication" and it is one less factor stressing me.
 

Gormur

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Not really. I'd be figuring out different ways to use my medication; I think you're talking about cocaine. I'd also be IVing it which I haven't tried and don't recommend trying
 

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It's the same with me. I smoke fentadope and i buy 3-4 grams at a time because it's cheaper but i have noticed i use less then say if i bought a gram.
 

Gormur

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It depends on the drug for me. If I had a lot of meth I could ration that no problem. A pound would last me a couple years. If I had a pound of marijuana, I'd probably use it all up in a year
 

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Yeah. Especially when it's down to the last bit. Say, one gram meth. I'll blow through it way quicker than I would normally.
 

Nipper76

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I've been thinking about this. If you feel disgusted with yourself and chuck it out, you just end up buying more shit and head first into a bender.
 

Xorkoth

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I'm the opposite with addictive drugs... if I have a lot, it's easy to convince myself that just a little more won't make much of a difference in what I have. Whereas if I have a small amount it's easy to see that I will run out soon so I can conserve better.

The only drugs I can keep a stash of are weed and psychedelics. My stash of psychedelics at this point could probably keep me tripping twice a week for the rest of my life and I wouldn't run out. But I don't desire to trip anywhere near that often. So it definitely won't ever run out. :D
 

SnafuInTheVoid

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I'm also the opposite. The more I have makes me care less about how much I have and always start using more than I ration for then realize I only have 10% left and freak out.

I'm also like that with money to an extent go figure.
 

Xorkoth

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Haha, yeah me too (re: money). Although trying to change that, I put most of my savings into some investments recently so I won't touch it and it will grow. I notice that I get excited to save some more and invest with it for the prospect of it growing over time, rather than spend it frivolously.

back when I used to be a daily pothead, I noticed when I started buying in quantity, I started smoking way more. When you have an ounce or two staring you in the face, smoking an extra few bowls a day doesn't seem like a big deal. Then when I'd start running low, I'd find all sorts of reasons to wait before packing another.
 

jimdron

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Thanks, it is interesting how different your answers are.

In contradiction to original post of mine, I am using much more lately. And I let myself do that, because I bought significant quantity of cocaine and it warms my heart.

What I think is happening is that, I would use less because stress of not having cocaine at hand is less. But in the same conditions I would use more cocaine, because whatever stress I am relieving with cocaine, could be relieved, since I have cocaine.

But relief from securing supply of cocaine for a while is real, obviously. But I get more aware of other stresses in me, since now I feel a bit more secure to acknowledge them, since I relieve them with cocaine.

Interesting stuff.
 

OpiateKiller

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Drugs I can’t preserve regardless of amount: heroin and cocaine. The more I have the more I use -

But for whatever reason I can sit on meth adderall and mdma with no issue
 
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