ADDITIONS TO THE REPORT:
- Snorting this stuff just felt evil and wrong... the pain, although not as great in magnitude as the pain from insufflated 2C-Xs, had a fiery, corrosive character to it that scared me, and actually made me so miserable for a good 20 minutes that I was in a bad mood and snappy to people. I've got no problem snorting small boosters of AMT, up to about 20mg, but AET feels different. Maybe it's because of the much larger amount necessary to snort.
- I had forgotten to mention one of my redoses... I put 50mg of the freebase crystals into 2mLs of distilled water, and added 2 drops of 30% HCl. I stirred it for a minute and the crystals readily dissolved as they became AET HCl. I then applied that rectally. Unfortunately I was already on quite a bit more than that from earlier and I can't be sure that it helped the high at all. My impression was that it did, though.
- Overall I definitely prefer AMT, but AET makes a nice addition to the "family", with unique characteristics of its own.
- Finally, the night of one of the days that this report covers, after the AET was only barely affecting me anymore, I took 25mg of 4-AcO-DMT fumarate (another to test that I've just encountered). It was my second exprience on it, and it was an almost completely ego-loss. It was so powerful that I sat down in my chair and the last thing I remember for 2 hours was everything in my field of vision fractallziing and bending in and falling through a single point. Then it was 2 hours later and my ego was hanging on my a thread. I pretty much went to the same place as I did during my earth-shattering 2C-E trip. That is, I woke up as fully as I think I could have, while still retaining memory as a human, into the universal consciousness (god, whatever), but I went so far that it became terrifying because I realized I was a fool for waking myself up from the wonderful slumber of subjective life experience. Because the force of consciousness, alone in an empty, black void, existing as a non-dimensional single point, leads a desperate existence of horrendous boredom and lonliness. I felt as if I was free-falling down dark tunnels, absolutely terrified because I was so out of control and was constantly bombarded with a cyclone of a thought loop that went between deluding myself into thinking this wasn't real, and back into realizing that not only is it real, but it's eternal, and I've gone and woken myself up from bliss. Gradually it slowed down to where I would occasionally get dragged back into the loop for a couple of spins, but mostly I was out and writing a few notes and reading some similar experience reports. I felt really great after the trip wore down, and was able to sleep easily when I wanted to. At the time I was starting to call it a +4, but now looking back I realize that it was too hazy in retrospect, and that I didn't really take much away from it. But it was definitely a strong +3 with powerful ego loss.
This makes the second experience I've had experiencing this void, and it fits with a lot of theory that there is out there and that I have myself, not only just because of these experiences. 4-AcO-DMT made it much, much easier than 2C-E did, though. I felt somehow removec from the raw panic and instead felt it indirectly, if that makes sense. I read an awesome trip report on Erowid after I started to come down that had some hauntingly similar themes in it. I'll try to find it...
Anyway, I've also had "god trips" that was sublimely beautiful and peaceful and glorious. So I'm not sure what to make of it. The one thing I can say, though, is that both of my terrifying void trips occurred while I was alone, indoors, whereas my positive ego-loss trips have occurred outdoors in nature.