I finally found out why I did not/would not want to quit benzos after a year and half of clonazepam 0.5mg bid prescribed back in 2007 by my neurologist for HPPD. Well I didn't have the condition then, but I have this tachycardia problem that was never really taken seriously except one time an ER doctor gave me a 6 month script of 10mg Inderal. That did the trick, back in 2011 I'd think. Now after being put on Clonidine 0.1mg tid prn in late 2012 when I started ORT, the tachycardia issues appear much less often, but I know it's not very healthy to keep taking clonidine, and its been 3 years and a few months that I take it, much less often that before because I stockpile my Valium 10mg bid script and try not to take too much of my Temazepam 30mg prn script by replacing them with RC benzos (that I use very smartly, unlike those horror stories from greenlighters and assorted randos who make like clonazolam, flubromazolam/pam and all of em are the devil. Maybe if you don't eat 25mg at once you could use them like any strong benzo that comes in pills, like alprazolam, triazolam and even more liberally in europe with pilled midazolam, loprazolam, lormetazepam, flunitrazepam and a bunch of others where the starting dose is often only .5mg a day, maybe bid.
I quit weed because of tachycardia, I quit biking because of tachycardia. The slightest physical efforts give me tachycardia. It hasn't gotten worse or maybe it has since I don't think about it, but after a regular blood test from my GP, turns out I have high thyroid, which is surprising considering my weight, when I was on methadone for 11 months, it made me gain 10 pounds a month...I lost 25 of these but still am too fat for my liking. But, I got weird feelings in my throat sometimes, like my whole front neck hurts but the bupe makes the pain lesser....damn ORT, it can hide diseases and such. But I don't know. I hope it is that in a way, as it is easily treated. Because one day after 2 days up on speed, I went to take another regular blood test and they came out with the low T, which was caused by methadone primarily, they took an MRI of my pituitary gland (that's the one right) that modulates signals to other important glands like your thyroid and your balls and some others like the tiny calcium controlling ones at the base of the neck. It also said I had low cortisol, which turned out to be because I was up for 2 days and a half on the comedown of a Dexedrine (between 40-50mg taken), so I guess my body just didn't have enough cortisol at that moment due to extreme fatigue and overworking of my bodily functions. Because those Cortef pills she gave me, almost gave me a heart attack or something really wrong, started with pain in my chest, lower chest that crept up and then went to my neck and between my shoulder blades...then would slowly go away. So I quit the Cortef the endocrinologist scripted me, the bitch almost killed me and I was really mad. Did not follow up on that other thing she said I was low in, prolactine, I don't even know what prolactine does, but it sounds like something related to milk and whatever, I took the special blood test where I had to lay down for an hour and they would take blood samples every 20 minutes. Then she called me to go to her office and since it's so far from home, I thought fuck it, I knew I'd have problems not to get angry about the Cortef.
I just hope it's not a tumour. Sure they can be removed easily, but they can also fuck with your vocal chords and said calcium glands at the base of one's neck making it so one has to take calcium supplements like old ladies to prevent osteoporosis.
But now at least I know what would go wrong with my heart with just more than one toke of weed, why I can't take more than 10mg of dexedrine without having real bad heart palpitations and a horrible crash when I used to party with my ex girlfriend for 2-3 days often eating 100mg during the whole fuck-a-thon.
Wish me luck, I can finally justify to my current gf why I order benzodiazepines online and why I get tremors when I don't take 20mg diazepam at once, when my script says 10mg bid. I always knew something physical was going wrong with me. I had to get a good GP to finally get somewhere.
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