I drive everyone crazy. I really do. Speak to me like a toddler. First of all, I hate having to take Benzo's. I really do. But I have a suspected tardive type of dystonia which they help control. I know it's no one's job, but if anyone could level with me to keep me from obsessing and freaking out, (as I've literally gotten on everyone's nerves over the years with medications), I'd appreciate it. As I've said in another thread, before I on Benzo's, I had been through 4 alcohol withdrawals to deal with agoraphobia/anxiety and some motor tics. Then I was put on a gamut, on and off of Antipsychotics and SSRI'S. Then I started on Clonazepam 8 years ago. Only prescribed by GP's and Psychiatrists. I didn't even see a MDS until 2013/treatment started in 2014 after a consult. Before that, my previous doctors put me on then would just discontinue them. This has happened 4 times. They didn't seem to be working, but when off of them, it was noticeable that they were and my Doctors would reinstate me. Now, I am switching from Diazepam to Clonazepam again. I'm also on Baclofen and get Botox. Both, which can cause excessive nervousness, and with my agoraphobia/schizotypal personality disorder, it's my pronounced. Here's where I'd REALLY appreciate your help. I am going back on Clonazepam because it works better than the Diazepam. But then I worry about stuff I've been assured probably won't happen, as it's a diazepam straight to clonazepam switch, such as diazepam withdrawals because it acts differently and has a longer half life. Also, in the past, even on the Clonazepam, after looking up so much information, when it doesn't feel the same at points, I go OMG I AM TOLERANT AND HAVE TO GO THROUGH WD'S AGAIN...BUT IT WORKS! Or OMFG I AM HAVING A PARADOXICAL REACTION AND HAVE PERMENANT BRAIN DAMAGE BECAUSE I MIGHT BE KINDLED AND I'M GOING TO GET WORSE OR DIE! Etc... Now, I am on Botox and Baclofen. Things got worse after that. Now, I need injections every 3 months as I've tried skipping them and it's been debilitating, same with attempted Baclofen tapers. So, please. Just level with me. I'm a, (possibly slightly incompetent), overthinker and a paranoid wreck. But am I fucked or am I just psyching myself out? Thanks.