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The 2005 wrap-up: The good, the bad, the wacked.

Samadhi

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I thought it would be a good time (being new years eve and all...) to post a thread for people to detail the highs and lows of their year. (that, and i've not started a thread in a long time ;))

Mine?:

:) 's:

* Going to Melbourne for my birthday and meeting some AMAZING people, finally.
* Finally visiting the Yarra Valley during aforementioned melbourne trip
* Losing 15kgs
* Getting my license (finally)
* Buying a car
* Paying off our trip to Thailand/Cambodia
* Being appointed permanency at work (we love being permanent with the Federal Government)
* My mum and dad finally becoming friends
* Spending the first xmas in almost 8 years with my sister and her family


:( 's

* My pa getting sick
* The month after we got back from Melbourne
* Having to take antibiotics for the first time in 10 years (now i know why i stayed away from them)
* The prospect of being single again for a short time
* Having to spend $2500 on our brand new car (damned RATS)


What's yours??

Merry New Year everyone! May the best of your 2005 become the worst of your 2006. Much love to all.

The samadhis :)
 
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nice idea samadhi :D


my :)'s


  • getting a new job
  • moving closer to the city
  • patching things up with an ex
  • awesome parties
  • awesome parties
  • awesome parties
  • meeting weird and wonderful people both from melbourne and abroad
  • finally getting myself on my feet in melbourne
  • playing hockey
  • playing touch
  • getting back into volunteer work and having helped people less fortunate


my :('s

  • loosing gillywin
  • not getting to travel as much as i wanted



2005 was a great year.. .bring on 06. ready to tackle it head on...
 
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:)

  • having a baby!
  • getting my license (about bloody time)
  • great uni results
  • turning a great profit with my business
  • having days when I was actually a good parent
  • ^Pipit^
  • feeling more confident in general
  • loving my husband most of the time
  • watching my Dad lose 30kg instead of dying of heart disease

:(

  • too much fighting
  • having days when I was a really crap parent
  • my gramps getting sick
  • sad days
  • finding out my brother is moving away forever
  • finding out my brother is fathering a "surprise" baby
 
:) 's:

1. working an amazing job
2. Getting to travel to 6 countries
3. Getting to work in 3 countries
4. Getting a decent pay rise
5. Buying my new forester GT
6. Earning 140k+ frequent fliers
7. Seeing Great Wall of China and Taj Mahal
8. Goa
9. Discovering a lot about myself in terms of what I want to achieve


8( 's

1. Being away from family and friends for the past 8 1/2 months
2. Staying in over 20+ or so hotels this year
3. Taking more than 20+ international flights - I hate being jet lagged!
4. Finding out friends are not really all they are cut out to be
5. Spending Christmas and New Years away from all my family and friends
 
The year 2005 was all about me, i did want i wanted to do for myself and that was to party, make new friends and make no boundries.

2006 is my nomad year, and i have already booked to visit and move to many state and countries next year.

:)
1) New job……same industry but million times better
2) Bought my WRX
3) Started talking to my brother again
4) Moved out of home
5) Partied every weekend, many memories for life
6) Meeting a lot of new people
7) Visits from overseas families
8.) Learning a lot about myself aswell

:(
1) Been involved in a lot of confrontations
2) A good friends suicide
3) Loosing my licence twice
4) Paying off debts, took a long time
5) Taken too much drugs/ wasted money
6) Loosing some friends
7) Loosing to much weight
8.) Didn’t save money
 
my :)

  • Moved away from Perth and getting a chance to live in Melbourne
  • Moving from Melbourne and now experiencing Sydney
  • Finally talking to my sister and actually being friends again
  • Scoring 2 awesome jobs and loads of work experience with my moves
  • Earning 15K a year more than I was at the beginning of the year ;)
  • Finally moving in with WitchDoctor after waiting for 2 years :)
  • Making some really dear friends in Melbourne
  • Discovering loads of things about myself and my friendships
  • Buying a much wanted IPOD!! w00t
  • Losing 4kgs... just in time for the New Year!! (I plan on getting rid of MORE)
  • Having loads of visitors from Perth come see us through out the year
  • Buying some really rad house furniture

my :(
  • Leaving Perth just as my Mum came out of hospital
  • Missing my Mum, Nonna and my beautiful cat Winters
  • Missing all my close friends from Perth
  • Being extremely lonely in first few months in Melbourne
  • Only being able to spend weekends with WitchDoctor for 10months
  • Really discovering who my real friends are....
 
:) 's:

* Getting engaged! :) :) :)
* Awesome ski trip to Mt. Hotham in August
* Turning 30... and having a great night to celebrate with all my friends
* Winery tour February 2005
* Meeting the Samadhi's in Melbourne recentl
* Losing 6kg
* Getting yet another pay rise from work
* Choosing my wedding dress
* Paying off the television and getting myself financially sorted for the wedding... v. proud of the way I've been saving so far.
* Using less drugs. See above for reason. :)


:('s:
* my relationship with my dad... not feeling so good about
* Not doing anything I'm proud of in my career yet *again*... just drifting about in the same job. Getting paid to stay in mediocrity.
 
engagement
new 17 grand car
getting rid of friends i never liked
telling some people how i really felt about them
surviving
passing all units in law
seeing NIN in melbourne
turning 20
maybe getting a job in one of the highest law firms in perth!!!
bali!

cons
i have a sore arm
my mum sometimes
having to go back to condoms
putting on 4 kgs and looking fatty coz i stopped exercising, coz i couldnt be bothered.. (new yers resolution)

i cant really remember

there are prob like 6 billion more
 
Passing year 11
Going clean
sliceing my friends in half, getting rid of the dead weight
Barrys Big Bananas of the 80's
Im still alive

Still single
Still a borderline alcoholic
Over women. Especailly Sydney women
Still in sydney.
Im spending new years at a lan party
 
Big barrys 583 80's songs fucking ROCKED!!! GO BAZZA!
 
:)'s

* Making some new 'close' friends
* Bringing my car home
* Losing weight early in the year
* Willpower - no mind altering substances for exactly 3 MONTHS!!!
* Starting dance classes/ Going to the gym
* Learning a lot about myself - esp. in the last few months
* The knowledge of who my real friends are
* Desire and courage for a fresh start

:('s

* Having an exceptionally bad trip [and all the problems that were most likely related that came afterwards].
* Being more neglectful of my responsibilities than I should have been
* Partying too much/ Taking too many drugs/ Spending too much money
* Losing interest in some of my interests

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Most of my good things have happened in the last few months. So all in all.. I think I've finished 2005 on a positive note! Despite back-tracking earlier in the year.
 
The Good...

*Meeting a great new bunch of people as of half way through Jan...
*Moving in with someone that let me in with his friends and becoming great friends with him in the process
*Having people that would stick by me, even though I never accept help it's always great to know that they're around
*Muzby... This guy isn't just a pretty face, actually he's not that either. But he does kick ass. And he's the kind of guy you want as a friend.
*Talking to my ex again
*Going back to an old work place, and finding that it is better than it ever was

The Ugly...

*Having my sister visciously attacked by a dog and losing part of her face
*Trying numerous times to commit suicide, and thinking it would be so much better to just end everything
*Breaking my Ex's heart, and knowing that at the moment she's not ready to open up her heart because of me
*For a while there I wasn't able to make other people smile, and therefore I myself couldn't smile. I've always said, the day I can't make people smile is the day I'm no longer wanted or needed on this earth...

The "I can't put it in good or bad catergory"

*Speaking to my dad for the first time ever. And whilst speaking to him, freaking out because it was almost like talking to another me
*Moving back in with my mum to help her and my three sisters out

I'm sure there's others... Ooh well
 
:)'s

working heaps and making heaps of $$$
enjoying my job and appreciating all the little things about it
spending time with my family
helping my SO build and finally move into his new house
buying a pool table
patching things up with an old good friend
scoring a holiday job to earn extra $ over christmas
playing backyard bocce and frisbee with my sister and folks
getting offered an awesome job overseas


:('s

losing some close friends
trying to talk myself out of great opportunities because I'm too scared
having to stay home and work over christmas while all my friends went away
getting sick at christmas and spending my whole 10 days off in bed
spending New Years at home because I was too sick to go to a party
 
THE GOOD :)
-i got a job that i really luv wiv a boss that i really luv
-i won a shitload of competitions aboard the horse i broke in in 2004, including 6 yo novice eventer of the year, and moved up a level in competition
-i met my wonderful boyfriend
-i joined a new pony club and got 2 start afresh
-i hav started 2 deal wiv my addiction
-met plenty of new friends, had new enjoyable experiences, new parties etc
-got to talk 2 my idol, ozzy osbourne
-got into the hobby of keeping and breeding rabbits
-joined bluelight!!
-stayed in the kaimanawa ranges helping break wild horses and going deer-hunting evry nite
-giving up smoking!!!


THE BAD :(
-getting kicked out of my old pony club 4 drugs
-losing one of my closest friends to heroin addiction
-my mother having to call the police 2 stop me trying 2 hurt her
-having 2 admit 2 mum that ive bn using
-my father disowning me and cutting me off his will
-suicide attempts
-my constant battle wiv food worsening by the yr
-the jealousy i feel towards my brother was VERY bad this yr
-being diagnosed wiv mental illnesses
-DETOX!! and esp relapsing straight aftawards...
-losing my license AND my R18 card
-smashing my beautiful VK commodore
 
:)

-Saving up a lot of money to travel
-quitting my job
-moving overseas
-being reunited with my family after a couple of years
-travelling Europe for 7 months
-meeting an amazing bunch of people and forming friendships that I think will last a lifetime
-learning how to understand myself
-my first white Christmas
-learning how to ski
-realising who my 'real' friends are
-experiencing new cultures, food & people
-possibly the end of my relationship
-finally finding work overseas

:(

-moving away from close family and friends
-not seeing my godson growing up, not being there for his first birthday etc
-too much alcohol consumption which lead to a few stupid decisions on my part
-possibly the end of my relationship
-not finding the right job for me overseas
-wasting too much time/energy/thoughts on past behaviours, past friendships, negative and consuming conversations
-meeting someone I really like and knowing that things will never be
-being separated from the many people that I have met in 2005
-missing New Years Eve in Sydney! And being homesick for the first time in 9 months
 
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tops thread idea samadhi...

my =D:

*meeting, falling for and moving in with my boy, pl4yer0ne
*getting my transfer to a coles down here and being put in the same position as i used to be, rather than having to go back to the bottom of the ladder, then...
*getting a new job so i can finally say fuck you to coles!
*finding new common interests with my brothers
*my impromptu off chops trip to melbourne
*neighbours. i'm sorry, but it was a fucking tops year :p
*big day out with littleone, and meeting a few blers too.
*my bl journal, i love being able to rant and put shit down as well as some of the more serious stuff
*my boy's friends welcoming me into their circle
*quiet christmas and new years at home with the boy and some pills, nice quality time together. we'll do the big stuff next year, promise!
*the amount of people who are telling me the miss me in brisbane, i didn't realise i was so loved!
*sex!

and the :(

*moving away from my friends and family, especially leaving my dad in our 4 bedroom house all on his own
*going a bit nuts sometimes and causing fights for no reason
*putting on a few kilos. it's not really much and no one notices, but it makes me feel self conscious
*drama with different bosses back home, swapping one evil for another
*the time before i started my job down here, sitting around with nothing to do :\
*losing touch with some friends
*missing my mum

the wacked? nothing, thank god
 
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:)
-My beautiful wife and daughter
- Kick arse job in the city working for a mate from Uni, and travelling home each night on the citycat.
-Being offered a share in the Melbourne arm of above buisness meaning I could be travelling there weekly to manage things, with an expected big pay increase.
-Buying new house which from the beginning looked like a hovel (with 3m high windmill), but now is starting to resemble the playboy mansion (If Mr Hef allowed his wife and daughter to live there)
-Messing with the minds of the good people of Brisbane with some cool art. No one ever suspects the butterfly;)
-Too many quality nights out to mention, but intrducing my brother-in-law to acid one night and pushing him in front of the Wild TV camera who happen to be in a club. Closest I came to pissing myself from laughter in '05
-A tie between heading home to Auckland for Bledisloe Cup or somehow ending up in the dressing shed of the Kiwi's before the ANZAC test.

:(
-Anytime I have had a fight with Mrs load
-Any time someone shat in my mouth and let a cannon off behind my eyes, following a night out.
 
=D :) %) :
- My new job! Progressing with a career I'd feared was stagnant.
- A totally hawt, lovely (mostly), fun dude taking up with me (again) and maintaining a reasonably healthy relationship.
- Finding a lovely friend in young Anna. Adoring her children. Adoring her whole family actually. And the arrival of Lily!
- My friends. Not having any (real) issues with them and being able to totally relax in their company.
- House and other thoroughly enjoyable television experiences.
- Infected Mushroom @ Metro in April.
- Feeling more independent and capable in many ways.

:\ :( 8) :
- My living situation becoming not-so-harmonious, a real decline in support from my family where I have needed it.
- A rift with my sister, who has been a close friend for years and years.
- Overindulgence & laziness.
- Intense depressive episodes.
- Remaining terribly unfit and gaining weight as a result of above two.
- The time leading up to my resignation from old horrible job. The treatment I recieved from management that had me in tears, daily.
 
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