Roachmon95
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- Mar 20, 2012
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So I screwed up bad and went on a two week binge. Up unto this point I've been clean from pain pills (Besides Kratom use maybe once or twice a month) for 9 months. Before I tell you my current situation I'll give you a little background info:
I started using opiates in early 2014. Most of my use involved Tramadol, Kratom, and Hydrocodone. But I would take any opiate I could get my hands on. I toyed around for a whole year before showing any significant signs of physical addiction. I dealt withdrawals in one form or another after this point, but they were never agonizing per se. I was miserable but I still went to work, school etc. In June of 2015 I decided to get clean and check myself into rehab. At that point I was but on 16mg of Suboxone per day. looking back, this was unnecessary and I think the treatment center I went to was making money off of it because they were handing the stuff out like candy. I stayed on the Subs for a month and half followed by another month of tapering and a withdrawal that was worse than those I was abusing. I eventually got myself together and managed to stay out of trouble for the most part.
Fast forward to today. I've been on a two week bender consisting of mostly kratom and oxycodone (a drug I never messed around with in the past). My use has gone from 25-30 mg a dose to 50mg a dose and I've used up to 80mg in a day on top of kratom. In other words, My tolerance has skyrocketed in an extremely short amount of time. It almost amazes me. It wasn't this high when I went into rehab.
So i'm hoping I can taper off using Lopermide. Has anyone here successfully come off a serious habit this way? If so what did your schedule look like? I also have Benzos (though I have a slight tolerance because i'm prescribed them everyday), DXM, Diphenhydramine, Phenibut, and Naproxen. Are there any other medication I could take that would help? How should I use them?
I'm Honestly just really scared because I don't want to do this all over again. I've never gone through the Horrendous withdrawal I've read about and I feel like its headed my way based on my usage. I've done something extremely irresponsible at a point in my life when I have a lot of responsibilities. All guidance on what to do and support would be appreciated. Due to my circumstances, I can't confide my relapse in anyone. Thanks in advance.
I started using opiates in early 2014. Most of my use involved Tramadol, Kratom, and Hydrocodone. But I would take any opiate I could get my hands on. I toyed around for a whole year before showing any significant signs of physical addiction. I dealt withdrawals in one form or another after this point, but they were never agonizing per se. I was miserable but I still went to work, school etc. In June of 2015 I decided to get clean and check myself into rehab. At that point I was but on 16mg of Suboxone per day. looking back, this was unnecessary and I think the treatment center I went to was making money off of it because they were handing the stuff out like candy. I stayed on the Subs for a month and half followed by another month of tapering and a withdrawal that was worse than those I was abusing. I eventually got myself together and managed to stay out of trouble for the most part.
Fast forward to today. I've been on a two week bender consisting of mostly kratom and oxycodone (a drug I never messed around with in the past). My use has gone from 25-30 mg a dose to 50mg a dose and I've used up to 80mg in a day on top of kratom. In other words, My tolerance has skyrocketed in an extremely short amount of time. It almost amazes me. It wasn't this high when I went into rehab.
So i'm hoping I can taper off using Lopermide. Has anyone here successfully come off a serious habit this way? If so what did your schedule look like? I also have Benzos (though I have a slight tolerance because i'm prescribed them everyday), DXM, Diphenhydramine, Phenibut, and Naproxen. Are there any other medication I could take that would help? How should I use them?
I'm Honestly just really scared because I don't want to do this all over again. I've never gone through the Horrendous withdrawal I've read about and I feel like its headed my way based on my usage. I've done something extremely irresponsible at a point in my life when I have a lot of responsibilities. All guidance on what to do and support would be appreciated. Due to my circumstances, I can't confide my relapse in anyone. Thanks in advance.