3 months or longer minimum is a good rule of thumb
Is it though? I mean, never taking any drugs would be a good rule of thumb but is not harm reduction. Where do we draw the line at what is genuinely dangerous and what is just overly cautious? I'm of the opinion that once a month is safe usage and anything past that is overly cautious. Sure it's not bad to be overly cautious but isn't entirely in-line with our mission of harm reduction IMO.
Yes this is my problem, im too worrysome, if i was having a bad day or got upset before my mdma use, i had nothing else to blame besides having a bad day. But now my worrysome mind goes straight to thinking its mdma. Aswell as my level of happiness is on mind 24/7. Even if my usage isnt causing any problems with my happiness, I think im just gonna have to cut back to once every few months to help get rid of these constant thoughts.
Remember that anxiety is a completely natural and compulsory psychological response necessary for survival. Anxiety helps us to identify dangerous situations and therefore avoid them. It's just the problem with anxiety in today's society is that it expands to areas that it actually doesn't benefit us in such as social situations and worrying about the future. In my opinion, and it may only be my opinion, the MDMA is not the cause but instead your fear for what MDMA
could have caused is actually causing the anxiety. Basically swapping the cause and effect here. Instead of 'I have taken MDMA which has damaged my brain making me feel anxious and depressed' I think it's 'I have taken MDMA, a drug that myself and society perceives to be damaging to my health, and now I'm worrying about that
perceived damage causing me to feel anxious'. Remember that everything is perceived and subjective to ourself and more often than not our perceptions rarely meet the actual reality of the situation. I'm currently undergoing cognitive behavioural therapy myself for social anxiety of which I'm 100% sure are nothing to do with my MDMA usage and instead a product of both my childhood experiences and society. CBT talks all about these things and discusses how anxiety needs to be identified for what it is and then overcome by facing the fears. Sure your situation isn't exactly the same but then again if you were able to identify your thoughts simply as anxiety and then let them go you'd probably feel a whole lot better about it. Anxiety has a funny way of causing behaviours which reinforce the anxiety and so the cycle continues. So by battling the anxieties by changing your thoughts or behaviours you can change the cycle of anxiety.
In my eyes you're experiencing 'Bluelight Syndrome' where you become obsessive about researching MDMA and understanding it to the point it actually causes anxiety itself. I used to do it too. And yet all the while the thoughts you have move you further away from the actual cause of the problem instead reinforcing your
perceived cause that is MDMA. Take a step back and try to look at things open-mindedly and objectively. Ask yourself, am I really any different to before I tried MDMA? Would my worries that are now MDMA just be about something else in my life? Just some food for thought from a guy currently undergoing cognitive behavioural therapy and beginning to understand anxiety a bit better.