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Stimulants Should I stop taking meth ?

Byzek

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I did meth on wednesday the first time since 1 year ago and now i have like 200mg left and I am thinking about putting it into the toilet.

Actually I smoked it with the intention to have sex on it but i found out that I prefer to be allone and watching porn instead. And jerk off.
Because for mr people who are taking meth are really different than normal people and its veryannoying and i domt wanna belong to this ppl.

Today I was chasing the high while laying in bed and jerking of and spent so much time watching porn and playing with my dick.
Actually what a waste.
I dont know.
I would love to try sex while high on meth but it does not work I dont know why.
LikeI said todayI smoked and smoked because I was looking for theperfect hight but Ihavent found it.

On sunday I was visiting some different guys and I realized that all of them are stupid because of Tina and they are talking a lot of bullshit.
 

Atelier3

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I think you basically answered your own question. You don’t really enjoy taking a drug known to be very dangerous and you see the evidence of the harm it is doing to your friends.

I made the mistake of combining sex and meth - it was fun for a while but it made quitting meth 100x more difficult and also ruined regular sex.

Seems like you know the answer. Most people who rave about meth either cannot see or are in denial about how much it fucks them up and ruins their lives. It took me a long time to be realistic about it and I have no regrets about quitting.
 

Audiobook

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I think you basically answered your own question. You don’t really enjoy taking a drug known to be very dangerous and you see the evidence of the harm it is doing to your friends.

I made the mistake of combining sex and meth - it was fun for a while but it made quitting meth 100x more difficult and also ruined regular sex.

Seems like you know the answer. Most people who rave about meth either cannot see or are in denial about how much it fucks them up and ruins their lives. It took me a long time to be realistic about it and I have no regrets about quitting.
What he said.

Meth just seems like bad news...I don’t ever wanna try it tbh.
 

OpiateKiller

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Should I stop sticking needles in my arm full of fentanyl?

Probably but shit who knows tomorrow is a new day.

Side note - the answer is most likely yes. Stop doing meth before it’s too late
 

denovo

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What he said.

Meth just seems like bad news...I don’t ever wanna try it tbh.
It is bad news. Up til Nov. 2020 I was only using a few times a year. IME one cannot be too careful with this shit. I count each time as a relapse, regardless of how short, and each time resets my sobriety tracker back to day 0.

I share a very similar experience with Atelier3 and you need to avoid combining sex and CM at all costs. Using the two together creates a high of its own and the two pathways are reinforcing enough to cause them to fuse over time. What that means is; every time you have sex, you will be triggered to use. Watching porn while sober will trigger you to use. Seeing sexually suggestive messages anywhere will trigger you to use. This is mentioned in more detail in “Lust, Men, and Meth: A Gay Man's Guide to Sex and Recovery” by David Fawcett.

Even just a few days ago I allowed it to convince me that I could control it, keep it on hand and partake on occasion. This drug is just too dangerous and too powerful. You’re not going to be able to control it, but you can still quit.

Do what you have done in the past and flush it down the toilet. I wish I would have done the same back in Nov.
 

Gormur

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I can't tell you what to do or who to befriend, but nobody's forcing you to do anything. I like meth and have been using infrequently since 2008. It's just a drug. I've never had sexual thoughts while on it, or at least nothing unusual. I mean a drug can amplify feelings you already have but changing sex drive or interest is a different matter. Everybody's different and if you don't like it you won't do it. Good luck
 

Atelier3

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. Everybody's different and if you don't like it you won't do it. Good luck
Your overall message had good advice in it but I question this a little bit. It is possible to like a a drug that is still utterly destroying your life. This would be me with meth. I mostly loved it while it was killing me and ruining my life.

It is also the nature of many addicts to keep taking a drug long past when they felt any pleasure from it. This is often the case with opiate addicts I think. And people on any drug with a needle fetish.
 

Gormur

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You're right. If I had a big stash of opiates I'd probably overdose because I like the high. Other drugs aren't this way for me though. I can easily ration cocaine and meth, well meth is easy because it's like medicine for me somehow. I can get high from it but it's barely worth using the amount it takes to but I like being leveled out, if that makes sense.

I probably should've added that it's good to take 2-3 days off during the week. It can (subjectively) make your mind and body kind of mushy, or maybe that's tolerance kicking in. And I guess I'll say it again, everybody's different in both body and mind. What feels good now may feel good forever or it may kill you. Either way it probably shortens one's life after a certain amount of usage
 

Byzek

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go to a brothel or hire an escort instead of laying in bed playing with your dick
yes my friend said that also
actually im 22 and im bodybuilder but when i watch porn it triggers me and i wanna do meth and just wank and be allone.

if i dont watch porn i dont wanna do meth - lil but funny.
 

Alex_1991

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Just want to clear up that if you havent already found the perfect high after smoking and smoking, youre not going to. There are other ways you could take it that might be more effective as to getting a really good high than smoking but I dont think Id suggest you switch to the needle or think youd really be on board with booty bumping lol.

I think if youre that frustrated with this sexual situation jerking off vs sex and not having it go way youd like it might be best to just leave it alone. Sex on meth is amazing and I personally am involved with quite a bit of chemsex stuff. I think if youve got the supplies and the will it’d be a fun experience for you. However, having this place where youre not getting it when youre already trying to figure that out and meth is extremely unhealthy isnt the best situation for your sanity or your health. So yeah, drop it.
 

wudbutcher

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I think you basically answered your own question. You don’t really enjoy taking a drug known to be very dangerous and you see the evidence of the harm it is doing to your friends.

I made the mistake of combining sex and meth - it was fun for a while but it made quitting meth 100x more difficult and also ruined regular sex.

Seems like you know the answer. Most people who rave about meth either cannot see or are in denial about how much it fucks them up and ruins their lives. It took me a long time to be realistic about it and I have no regrets about quitting.
 

wudbutcher

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If you haven’t had chemsex, don’t. Wanna know what it does? Read the sex and relationships forum. Pleasant, but you cant unlearn it and you’ll NEVER feel 100% in a conventional relationship. It’s an itch you don’t want to be scratching.
 

tweakerguy

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If you haven’t had chemsex, don’t. Wanna know what it does? Read the sex and relationships forum. Pleasant, but you cant unlearn it and you’ll NEVER feel 100% in a conventional relationship. It’s an itch you don’t want to be scratching.
There isn't an itch on planet earth this lad hasn't scratched 🤼‍♀️
And its the best part of getting them.
 

deficiT

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Meth is neurotoxic, so if you're already finding bad and uncomfortable side effects with it, it sounds like you'd be better off stopping while you're ahead.

I personally have never been able to just flush drugs but you can always finish your bag and not get more. 200mg isn't all that much.

Being around tweaker behavior gets old fast.
 
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