OP here
so im on the done now, 45mg now on the way up to 60. until yesterday it want doing a damn thing, but now it seems to be having an effect as im not getting "high" when i use, and i can go longer between shots, and i only get sick to a certain degree, defenitly not full blown dopesick at all tho.
im going to see if i can go the full day at work without using today, but a lot of it seems just out of habit, not to mention this whole needle obsession i seem to have now, ugh. but at least now i can stop using without being fulll blown dopesick, maybe get some clean time under my belt which would be very nice.
at least now i have a soft place to land, no more being sick every few days, and no more of my master plans to get clean that never work, only to leave me more discouraged.
i have at least some type of plan, w access and mandatory meetings w councelors and therapists and all that. i feel like i need that and the whole pain in the ass structureof the clinic to keep me on the right road. A lot of people think that getting on methadone is just to avoid withdrawls, for some maybe. but for me staying clean was the hard part, i kicked more times than i can remember, but i always went back, i just didnt know what to do. now hopefully the program can help keep me clean.