Michaelablue
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Hey everyone,
So this is the first time I've posted. I've read many threads over the last year during my constant battle with Meth addiction. I started snorting, then smoking and now I'm smoking EVERYDAY! I hate it but I can't seem to stop. I have constant anxiety and promise myself everyday to stop but it's so damn hard. I wake up and say I'm not doing it, I seem to be doing good for half the day and then the encouraging thoughts to go buy it start to creep in - a long with the hopeless feelings of - I can't get through the rest of the day without it. Slowly the evil takes over, I've made the call or driven round and I'm buying it. I seem to talk myself into the fact that it's a great idea and love the initial hit but then I get greedy, I have to much and then the anxiety starts and I feel I'm having a heart attack and I'm going to die. This is now a daily cycle. REPEAT - REPEAT - REPEAT. I'm so sick of being like this but I can't stop. The longest I've gone is 3 days twice in the last 2 months. I've even gone as far as intentionally breaking 3 pipes to stop but then I just buy another one. And it's soooo expensive here. A point is <snip>. I can spend <snip> a week on it sometimes it's ruining me financially. But I can't stop
Anyways my question is...I have benzos and Ativan, I have them for anxiety but only take them a handful of times per year. Would it help to take 1-2 of these a day for the initial week and then tapper down through the next week or 2? I'm just out of ideas and there is no support here. Any help, advice or your story would be really appreciated xxx
So this is the first time I've posted. I've read many threads over the last year during my constant battle with Meth addiction. I started snorting, then smoking and now I'm smoking EVERYDAY! I hate it but I can't seem to stop. I have constant anxiety and promise myself everyday to stop but it's so damn hard. I wake up and say I'm not doing it, I seem to be doing good for half the day and then the encouraging thoughts to go buy it start to creep in - a long with the hopeless feelings of - I can't get through the rest of the day without it. Slowly the evil takes over, I've made the call or driven round and I'm buying it. I seem to talk myself into the fact that it's a great idea and love the initial hit but then I get greedy, I have to much and then the anxiety starts and I feel I'm having a heart attack and I'm going to die. This is now a daily cycle. REPEAT - REPEAT - REPEAT. I'm so sick of being like this but I can't stop. The longest I've gone is 3 days twice in the last 2 months. I've even gone as far as intentionally breaking 3 pipes to stop but then I just buy another one. And it's soooo expensive here. A point is <snip>. I can spend <snip> a week on it sometimes it's ruining me financially. But I can't stop
Anyways my question is...I have benzos and Ativan, I have them for anxiety but only take them a handful of times per year. Would it help to take 1-2 of these a day for the initial week and then tapper down through the next week or 2? I'm just out of ideas and there is no support here. Any help, advice or your story would be really appreciated xxx
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