- Aug 31, 2016
- Frostbite Falls, MN
Ibogaine and PTSD: My experience
by Tim Williams
I suffer from PTSD, and quite a severe level. I have severe depression with suicidal ideation, short term memory issues, anticipative anhedonia, and aversion to interacting with other members of the public. There ARE some things you can look at that may be of considerable help. I have extensive, personal experience with each, and they've all helped me to great degrees.
The curative abilities of psychedelics are well-documented and have been noted since the 1960s. Specifically, low-dose psilocybin provokes neurogenesis (neuron birth) in the hippocampus. This is significant since the hippocampus shrinks in profoundly depressed and anxious people. Short term low-dose psilocybin has been shown to cause fear extinguishment, i.e. cessation of the nervous response when exposed to a trauma trigger. I can vouch for this being of considerable benefit for me right now. MDMA and LSD also have effects, though slightly different. LSD is known to weaken depression and addictive/compulsive behaviours, and MDMA was one of the most effective tools in psychoanalysis until it was banned as a party drug. Single or intermittent use of DMT is also known to be of benefit - this one, personally, completely cured fear of dying on my first go.
Ibogaine is a psychedelic but a very unusual and interesting one. It has a number of effects on a number of receptors, with stunning and profound results. One of its uses is in drug addiction, where it is up to 20x more effective than traditional detox programs. The OTHER use, which is intertwined with the anti-addictive effects, is in non-psychotic depressive disorders.
Its multi-pronged action simultaneously resets opiate receptor tolerance; floods the brain with dopamine, leading to re-regulation of disturbed dopaminergic effects such as anhedonia; has profound NMDA inhibitory effect (which is a whole new area of anti-depressive research right now, and also allows you to re-process traumatic memories); is a stimulant (cures brain fog and lethargy); is an SSRI (cures depressive behaviours); and last but not least, it up-regulates production of BDNF. BDNF is a growth factor which causes neurons to re-sprout and repair - think a bare tree growing new leaves. Further, taking the full flood dose of 25mg/kg gives you a fascinating 20 hour trip in which you have unparalleled access to all your memories (thanks, NMDA inhibition) and can literally re-visit and gain insight into any part of your life. This has been called "2 years of intensive therapy in a single day."
Ibogaine can be dosed as the psychedelic flood dose, but that requires medical preparation, a minder, and is quite rough as a trip - expect nausea and ataxia. However it's rewarding enough that many people do it once a year just for the incredible insight into one's self that it brings.
The way I tend to use it is microdose. This is a 50mg dose per day, in a 7 days on, 3 days off pattern. The dose is not psychedelic at this point. You don't notice it affecting you at all, but it IS there doing its work... and by the second week you will definitely start to notice significant improvements in many areas.