Hi everyone. Excuse my English. I'm french. I'm 35 in June. I'm fuckin tired.
Let me explain how psychiatry can leads a young men to dementia.
When i was young i was raised by my mother and father. Everything was good. My parents are working class but they worked hard for me and my sister have good summer holidays. Nice clothes. Nice toys for Christmas. My mother lost a baby in her abdomen Beetween my sister 1980 and me 1985. When i was born. She gives me breast milk a long time. 18 months. When i was little i was afraid at night. And i sleep with my mother. My father sleeps in my bed. Oedipe problems...
I was good at school. I dont remember when i stops sleeping with my mother but i think it was 7 years old. Oedipe shit....
I was friend with a lot of boys. Some were nerds and the friends of my hood were a little more agitated and they all one or two years older than me.
When teenage comes at 12 we were playing Fifa on ps1. Were roller skating. Playing soccer. Life was good. When i come to college i was 16. My hood friends begin to smoke that haschich. France has little maryjuana. Maghreb people algerian and moroccan selling haschich from morocco. So 16 years old i began smoking thc. Drinking alcohol in the week end. No problem i graduate my college at 18 years old.
Before 16 my sister introduce me to rock music. And particulary to The Smashing Pumpkins. 96 was the year of mellon collie and the infinite sadness. Remember that album name because it will become my life.
My friends introduce me at 16 to french rap and one black friend introduce me to US rap.
When i hear ruff riders from dmx i was like... thats my shit.
I was without girlfriend at this time. In 2004 in a club. I met a girl. She was so mature. She begin architect school in my town. We begin a relationship and we both lose our virginity. I was 18.
One day i go to mall with my mother.. olook at the dvd and i see "east coast west coast shit" 10 euros. Mom can you buy me that ?
I put the dvd and it was a compilation of universal rappers. I look and then... A song... Bacl that azz up from Juvenile. That wet music... the shirleys... and that lil boy in the end with a duck voice. Fuckin lil wayne.
I found in love with that southern music.
In 2005 during the summer. I come in wBoston to visit my uncle who married and american women in 92.
I buy all the lil wayne Cd . At this time his last was Carter1. I buy all BG discography. Juvenile best of.
2006.in france. I buy carter 2.
2007 was lil wayne mixtape era. He was at the top. Like father like son. What a time. A girlfriend good music. Sociology student. Smoking cannabis with friends. No problems.
Sourhern music all day. Lil wyte. Ugk. Ti . Gucci mane.
I understand that wayne was not only smoking. He was drinking that syrup.
In France at this time codeine syrup was OTC. One day i buy a 200 mg codeine syrup. It was 2008 i think. I drink that with sprite. I feel nothing special. So i forget about that.
In 2009. I begin nurse school. And there was a girl. That body that look in his eyes. She was different that my girlfriend. My girlfriend was skynny simple not very sexy but she was so mature. Beetween 2004 and 2005.it was a relationship cool but i was ... pushing het to the limits so she break sometimes but we always go back together.
So in 2009 september. I begin that fuckin nurse school. And i m so attracted by that girl. She was turkish. Turkish people are the worst nationalist people on earth.
On faceboik i talk to a femaleturkish friend when i was little. I tell her: im in love wirh a turkish girl. What do i do ?
She answer: dont do that you will meet HELL.
During the christmas break i decide to try with this girl but this girl says me. It will be complicated. Her family wants him married with a turkish boy only. But like a child who nevet reflection i say goobye to my first love. 5 january 2010. The last day of my life.
2 weeks later. First kiss with that turkish girl.
3 monrh later she give me her virginity.
That girl was a fuckin perverse narcissit but at this time i dont know this thing. I go ro nurse school. I can see her only at school times because she lives under the control of her family. September 2010. I decide to go to her house to tell his brother shes my girlfriend. I became crazy of course. He take a knife. But i was with a strong congo black friend who defend me. The brother hits his sister. And she flees her house. She come to my house but we both were unstable because nothing was preparated. I was my impulsive. Behaviour who leads to this situation.
One week later we begin nurse stage at hospital. And she give a sms the morning but i was letting my phone at nurse dressing room. When i finish the morning post. I read her sms and my mom call me and tell me. You know that shes back with her family because you no answer his text.?
Let me explain how psychiatry can leads a young men to dementia.
When i was young i was raised by my mother and father. Everything was good. My parents are working class but they worked hard for me and my sister have good summer holidays. Nice clothes. Nice toys for Christmas. My mother lost a baby in her abdomen Beetween my sister 1980 and me 1985. When i was born. She gives me breast milk a long time. 18 months. When i was little i was afraid at night. And i sleep with my mother. My father sleeps in my bed. Oedipe problems...
I was good at school. I dont remember when i stops sleeping with my mother but i think it was 7 years old. Oedipe shit....
I was friend with a lot of boys. Some were nerds and the friends of my hood were a little more agitated and they all one or two years older than me.
When teenage comes at 12 we were playing Fifa on ps1. Were roller skating. Playing soccer. Life was good. When i come to college i was 16. My hood friends begin to smoke that haschich. France has little maryjuana. Maghreb people algerian and moroccan selling haschich from morocco. So 16 years old i began smoking thc. Drinking alcohol in the week end. No problem i graduate my college at 18 years old.
Before 16 my sister introduce me to rock music. And particulary to The Smashing Pumpkins. 96 was the year of mellon collie and the infinite sadness. Remember that album name because it will become my life.
My friends introduce me at 16 to french rap and one black friend introduce me to US rap.
When i hear ruff riders from dmx i was like... thats my shit.
I was without girlfriend at this time. In 2004 in a club. I met a girl. She was so mature. She begin architect school in my town. We begin a relationship and we both lose our virginity. I was 18.
One day i go to mall with my mother.. olook at the dvd and i see "east coast west coast shit" 10 euros. Mom can you buy me that ?
I put the dvd and it was a compilation of universal rappers. I look and then... A song... Bacl that azz up from Juvenile. That wet music... the shirleys... and that lil boy in the end with a duck voice. Fuckin lil wayne.
I found in love with that southern music.
In 2005 during the summer. I come in wBoston to visit my uncle who married and american women in 92.
I buy all the lil wayne Cd . At this time his last was Carter1. I buy all BG discography. Juvenile best of.
2006.in france. I buy carter 2.
2007 was lil wayne mixtape era. He was at the top. Like father like son. What a time. A girlfriend good music. Sociology student. Smoking cannabis with friends. No problems.
Sourhern music all day. Lil wyte. Ugk. Ti . Gucci mane.
I understand that wayne was not only smoking. He was drinking that syrup.
In France at this time codeine syrup was OTC. One day i buy a 200 mg codeine syrup. It was 2008 i think. I drink that with sprite. I feel nothing special. So i forget about that.
In 2009. I begin nurse school. And there was a girl. That body that look in his eyes. She was different that my girlfriend. My girlfriend was skynny simple not very sexy but she was so mature. Beetween 2004 and 2005.it was a relationship cool but i was ... pushing het to the limits so she break sometimes but we always go back together.
So in 2009 september. I begin that fuckin nurse school. And i m so attracted by that girl. She was turkish. Turkish people are the worst nationalist people on earth.
On faceboik i talk to a femaleturkish friend when i was little. I tell her: im in love wirh a turkish girl. What do i do ?
She answer: dont do that you will meet HELL.
During the christmas break i decide to try with this girl but this girl says me. It will be complicated. Her family wants him married with a turkish boy only. But like a child who nevet reflection i say goobye to my first love. 5 january 2010. The last day of my life.
2 weeks later. First kiss with that turkish girl.
3 monrh later she give me her virginity.
That girl was a fuckin perverse narcissit but at this time i dont know this thing. I go ro nurse school. I can see her only at school times because she lives under the control of her family. September 2010. I decide to go to her house to tell his brother shes my girlfriend. I became crazy of course. He take a knife. But i was with a strong congo black friend who defend me. The brother hits his sister. And she flees her house. She come to my house but we both were unstable because nothing was preparated. I was my impulsive. Behaviour who leads to this situation.
One week later we begin nurse stage at hospital. And she give a sms the morning but i was letting my phone at nurse dressing room. When i finish the morning post. I read her sms and my mom call me and tell me. You know that shes back with her family because you no answer his text.?
