I just realized something, since I took 3-Me-PCP three weeks ago I've been thinking a lot about gratefulness. I was sitting in my room, listening to the new GY!BE album, which is quite dark at times, and started thinking about the misery in the world, that seems to have become more visible specially during the pandemic. Well, I don't really know how living these times from a first world country is like, but here in LATAM it has really come to show the flaws in our economies and public health services, and has made it clear that the illusion of wealth brought by the capitalists reforms of the latter half of the past century is just that, an illusion. In the end we are on our own in this system, even though we all contribute to the production of the wealth. We are promised security , comfort and abundance, as long as we contribute to the economy through labor. But in the reality, the promised goods are only for a small percent of the people,
the poor always suffer more in the face of crisis.
Well, sorry for the political rant, but my dissociated mind was exploring similar pathways that night, but then I stopped for a minute, looked around, and recognized that despite all the misery of this world I'm still privileged enough to live comfortably, and take a night off to take a novel dissociative drug, enjoy some music in the company of my loving girlfriend and soft cat-friend, and was flooded with this sense of gratitude for my own life. And it was like a switch flipped on my brain, I've been thinking about the stuff I'm grateful for in my life a lot lately. My last trip on bicycle day came to reinforce that and further installed the idea in my head. It's been a recurring theme lately.
So in that context, last night while I was browsing bluelight I came to recognize that I'm also very grateful for this space. I have very very few people in real life, if any, to share this experiences with, and discuss the compounds we consume in the way we do here. And in a way it's such a big part of my life and interests. I mean I've never been one to dose for weeks on end, but after all these years there's been so much invested into this exploration of psychoactives, they are a huge aspect of what I've lived and what I've thought about, so it would be weird not having anyone to talk about this and share experiences, anecdotes, tips, words of warning... But I have all of you to share this journey of self-discovery and pharmacological curiosity, and I really, really do feel grateful for that. It's easy to take for granted, but I've wanted to explicitly thank you all for being here and making this place what it is.
I know you were just discussing empathogens, but I'm completely sober right now BTW, lol.