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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Tripping Thread: Tripping Past 2020

negrogesic

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So pleased mate honestly. And hey, just shows doesn’t it? Keep reminder of that. A short while back you had almost reached disillusionment and hopelessness on your capability to perform well.

I was planning to say to you forgot, as has been messy week plus but in hindsight 1.05 mg’s in 7 days is quite fast going so to expect a week of blurriness sometimes.


But years ago, I heard of a legit study- uni volunteers. Groups. Same classes. One group goes to pub after class for a sociable, moderate alcohol drink.

Others stay sober, go about ways.

The pub group officially retained more information for later recall.

Now I think you read it of me already, 19 at Uni, it was vaporizing cannabis particularly- not smoking, at 8.20 am for 9 class, I was so effortlessly interested in following the entire lecture.

I engaged visually. Building a structure of comprehension and memory to retrace by really walking through it.

I also passionately scribbled down, 4 A sides every lecture, the whole gist of it 100%.

This was to stay focussed, really embed it visually, and in pen, so those scribbled notes would be my revision tool as it was connected to the way it was layed.

I swear, the vaporized weed helped me massively here.

It’s amazing though, the 1st year exams, I revised 1 hour only. Smoking huge blunts of best skunk ever old days, 8.30 am, music- I visually encoded one good essay into my head.

Took all lecture scribbled notes to skim through, highest weed can bet you lol, walking to bus stop up stairs to exam room.

The heavy true psychedellic skunk helped me make that short revision technique work.

I passed everything, all friends and family were shocked lol cos this was the type of skunk, first time I brought it in the house, unsmoked, all housemates rushed to my door in excitement to inquire about it.

Yet here i am getting the fear from 50ug of LSD. It looks like past heavy benzo withdrawals (2 severe ones, separated by 8 years) has sort of left me kind of shell shocked.
 

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Yet here i am getting the fear from 50ug of LSD. It looks like past heavy benzo withdrawals (2 severe ones, separated by 8 years) has sort of left me kind of shell shocked.
I was thinking earlier, how the undoubted side effects of prolonged reckless benzo use- effectively permanent withdrawal symptoms in a sense, with occasional relief and side effects outweighing pros, in that position I find the after day of tripping impossible, I’m much more prone to panic attack anxiety because of the Benzos, I’m Massively dependent on them to keep anxiety just about in check so obviously throwing any psychedelic and it’s only going to make it more challenging.
 

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So, people, I’m a plum. I wonder why my life doesn’t work, why it seems so hard.

I’m at a point where I’m itching to get totally real.

I never ever have liked Roger Waters. I have been feeling very strongly lately, that there is something inherently unhealthy about Pink Floyd.

Particularly Syd Barrett’s fairy tale creations.

I’m very conscious of the whole satanic structure of society, especially the entertainment, showbiz, movie and music industry.

I decided to open my eyes. I never before have searched down this road.

But I cannot deny what feels so true to my heart and mind.

I’m convinced. They are just another band of fucking Satanists after all, whether they know it or not (THAT is the burning question in my mind on a case by case business.)

I did uncover the link between the legendary Beatles and satanism years ago.

It was a tough pill to swallow, not because I’ve ever been a Beatles fan, but I won’t refuse the right bait to keep blinkers on, no sir.

But damn, I’ve really been barking up the wrong tree haven’t I?

I may destroy my entire Pink Floyd collection you know.

This is interesting capitol I. Syd a sacrifice? Or an escapee? Complicit? Sworn oath? Or just used and caught up in the fire.



But this one:

 

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I love taking acid in this yard. The neighbors lights always look life elf houses in the woods. It's so fun.
Idk what I saw walking around in my neighborhood the other night I was tripping but the back yard I glanced into had all sorts of amazing lights and decorations, look like an outdoor palace..
 

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We really have been enswamped all along. I’ve known it but kidded myself that I only dingled my toes in the rabbit hole.

Nice little halo still and all sins excused. Nice man. They say.

Satan is so real. I believe in Satan. I don’t worship him no way. But he is in us, all but the purest.

I used to visit a local Christian church occasionally on Sundays. As I had old friends who had converted to Christianity, and it was a nice atmosphere with nice people.

They always talk about “giving your life to Jesus.”

I watched many people do this. There appeared to be a genuine supernatural phenomena taking place. These men would start violently shaking, crying in laughter and tears of joy, that precise Monet, like coming up on a humungous doses something.

They would need catching as they fell to carpet, limbs jerking like a dead rabbit.

Before finally coming round.

I kept my mind open as my eyes had seen. It’s a phenomena in my mind.

I really need to jump ship. I’ll do anything I’m so committed it’s just knowing what to do.

One saving grace... and this really is totally literal and not cliche as well- Thank God for Bob Marley.

No way can I consider he was a Satanist, doing his work. He was a pure man whose only focus was the pure white light at the end of the tunnel.

It’s people like him who make me believe in a tunnel, and hopefully a light.
 
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To me Satan represents free will, the hangnail on the edge of God's determinism that we can grab on to to exercise a shred of agency. God doesn't play dice, but Satan sure does, and he'll even let you load the dice a bit. All part of the almighty though, Satan is a shard of the monad, not in opposition to but more like a handle of, which lets us condition and differentiate and have autonomous experiences of reality.
 

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also had some woodlovers paralysis. These mushrooms pinned me to the bed and forced me to become their bitch.

mushrooms scare me on another level these days. i got my ass handed to me and humbled. But thinking back next time i trip will probably be on LSD but still a decent amount but i am only ever going to touch very small amounts of mushrooms. went for a walk the word is so fresh had to shower during the trip. Got a massive headache now.

But it cleansed me in every way i no longer am burdened by people. Because they will never understand all the pain in my heart and soul they will never understand what it was to struggle every day they will never know what it was like to sleep on concrete with no blanket every night for months fucking my ribs and back up they will never know what it was like to never have food for a whole year i lived on very bare staples only able to get breakfast with no money. They will never know the pain of getting beaten nearly every day for over 10 years they will never the pain of been sexually abused by their peers at just 12 years old. They will fucking never understand and thats what seperates real people from fake people. My friends understand my pain and accepted me while fake motherfuckers will be quick to judge and talk behind ya back. Im a solider of fucking god though i still fight on through all the pain and struggles in gratitude each day to even sleep on a mattress to eat food and not be hungry and starving to not be attacked every day and beaten violently and covered in bruises.

Through the darkness and pain i became evil at one point in life with murder on my mind every day Yet through it all i found the light of god within my heart burning ever so brightly i just had to open my eyes. I will fight the good fight and live on and rise above the darkness i will let not one more fake mother fucker ever doubt myself again and make me feel bad. Because i am a solider of god i have been through it all my soul became gentle from fighting to much i was to exhausted to keep the mask on of trying to be tough to protect myself people will never know the pain i went through and the journey of atonement i have been on for my owns sin. Fuck people who got fed with a silver spoon shoved so far up their own ass all they can taste is their own bullshit that comes from their mouth.

I am the light of my soul i am bliss i am that i am Lord jesus christ have mercy on me a sinner purge me of my darkness.
 

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About to take 18-24mgs of DOF

Will keep some notes in case in becomes eventful enough for a proper trip report. Pretty excited im gonna clean my apartment while waiting for it to reveal itself. Hard to judge the amount cuz of level of liquid in the vial and some is missing tho indont remember taking it. Originally it had 33mgs it, not super scientific and I apologize about that. But this one seems not very potent so im not overly concerned. I still have another vial with powder stored...
 

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My job just reached out to me to ask if I could come in right now and fill in for someone but I declined. Really enjoying myself today and I need this time to decompress and chill. These little psychedelic voyages of mine keep me sane and ot can't be all work and no play. That will completely burn a person out after awhile. Technically I could work on this stuff easily but I just wanna relax today and I've made enough money this week considering I just got a raise a few days ago.
 

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So I finally heard back from Kitten today after not speaking past week or two, which has been painful for me regardless of what she thinks. She is very pissed at me for being on a dating app towards the end of our last go at a "fling/relationship". But come on now Kitten I literally begged you to be more girlfriend and was never with anyone else while you were still coming over and apart of my life. Did I reactivate my account a week prior during a period where you literally ignored me for two days pretty much, come on now....don't make it out like I'm the bad guy. You know how much I love you and if things were official I would never ever cheat on you or be flirtatious with another woman. You mean everything to me and I don't care if my friends think im crazy for letting you have me jump through hoops. I'd do it all over again to spend another night with you in my arms, plant another kiss on those lips. I love you baby and as soon as I hung out with that chick I knew I couldn't do it cuz you have my heart still. Please come back...
 
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