This all makes a lot of sense especially with the ptsd. I think I will eventually trip again, just not until I am a little more grounded than I am now. Thanks for the advice I really appreciate itBeen young it shatters your worldview. It can take a few years after such a heavy experince to really come back to a baseline grounding in reality. I believe you might suffer PTSD from the trip and certain cues will trigger feelings from the trip. A gp could probably prescribe you a low dose benzo to quell the anxiety. Im also a firm believer that you have to go back to LSD evenutally and work through that experince. Leaving things undone in the midst of a psychedelic crisis has plauged many trippers for years til they returned back and had a good experince with LSD and resolved and came to terms with it.