roxi2873
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Aug 11, 2015
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I had been sober for 2 months after a dreadful time getting off subs. I was doing great. Had a good job, had my girl back, I felt great and then a few days ago it all changed. I went to work a little early to meet some lady at the dollar store who was buying a pair of shoes I bought but didn't fit. She never showed up after 45 minutes. Just as I was about to start my truck and leave, my old dealer pulled in next to me. Before I knew it he was sitting in my truck with a huge amount of heroin he had just went and got and asked if I wanted to trade for the shoes and stupidly I said yes. He proceeded to shovel out about .1 worth of heroin took the shoes and left. I felt guilty immediately and considered just flushing the crap at work, but I didn't. I stopped at a coworkers house to pick him up, went in the bathroom and snorted it. The only thing I remember after that is sitting down on the couch and looking at my phone for a second. The next thing I know I can hear a bunch of people around me yelling things, trying to get me to talk, asking what I took. For a while I couldn't even move or talk, I started thinking I had lost consciousness and was now a vegetable. Eventually I started being able to move and talk and slowly came out of it. I was told I wasn't breathing for at least 2 minutes and they couldn't tell if I had a pulse or not. It took one shot of narcan IM and one IV to bring me back. I know it sounds stupid but I never dreamed I would ever overdose. I just thought I had done so many drugs before nothing would ever kill me. I lost my job, my girl and I broke up over it and I guess I could still face a possession charge. The cops want me to give up info but I don't have any anymore, I was out, sober. I don't know what to do from here. I fucked up so bad. All because I couldn't say no one fucking time.
I know it had to be fentanyl that I did. I could tell something was wrong as soon as I did it. There was no rush, just sedation. The amount i did should have never done that if it was just heroin. Lesson learned. Getting on vivitrol next week.
I know it had to be fentanyl that I did. I could tell something was wrong as soon as I did it. There was no rush, just sedation. The amount i did should have never done that if it was just heroin. Lesson learned. Getting on vivitrol next week.