- Aug 26, 2018
Hi...I have wanted to post here throughout my withdrawal, but chickened out because I wasn't sure I'd stick it out. I'm thrilled to say I'm day 8!! I can remember being on day 1 and feeling the whisperings of impending withdrawals, like the gentle storm gusts you get before it hits. I remember thinking, "ahh, day 8, 9, 10...I'll feel so much better by then if I can make it." Hard to believe I'm here. Still not feeling great, but markedly better. I have an autoimmune disorder, one that results in a lot of joint pain and skin tunneling that may manifest in open sores on my legs, making walking difficult...one of the most painful conditions I've ever experienced. The worst is my hands. I grew up playing piano and need my hands for work. I'm not sure I'd know who I am without the use of my hands. Tramadol would "fix" that, temporarily...I could play piano for HOURS, sometimes all night. I could lift my babies without pain, and I could write, something I want to get back to once I'm a little bit stronger. My health issues skyrocketed after childbirth, and I found myself taking more and more to be able to stay on top of the house, the kids, and my own pain. I'd love to hear your heartfelt stories. I am determined to be done with opiates, and to find other ways to deal with my health issues. These forums have kept me going, kept me honest with myself. You never know what kind of impact your story will have on a struggling user. I want to be an encouragement to anyone struggling. Thanks everyone...your honestly is good medicine.